Reasons why I can't drink normally!!!
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Wow, a year since this post and I'm back in a hole...
Feeling sick, tired, moody, exhausted, panicking about stopping drinking, terrified of the thought of having a seizure...
Finding it impossible to taper...
But should I stop cold turkey?
Finally got back in touch with Addaction who organized my home and dry detox last year, support worker phoning me, hope to meet next week...
I am blacking out every night and have no recollections of conversations I have had with my husband.
I hate my husband, I want him to leave but I realize that I cannot be responsible for 2 children under 10 while I am in the grips of this alcoholism.
I need to wake up and change my life.
Feeling sick, tired, moody, exhausted, panicking about stopping drinking, terrified of the thought of having a seizure...
Finding it impossible to taper...
But should I stop cold turkey?
Finally got back in touch with Addaction who organized my home and dry detox last year, support worker phoning me, hope to meet next week...
I am blacking out every night and have no recollections of conversations I have had with my husband.
I hate my husband, I want him to leave but I realize that I cannot be responsible for 2 children under 10 while I am in the grips of this alcoholism.
I need to wake up and change my life.
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Join Date: Aug 2016
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Hi ff,
I am sorry things are hard there, but I can guarantee you that quitting drinking completely is the only way to make things better.
I too used drinking as an escape route for issues in my relationship, I still love my wife but things have been difficult for a while. I can tell you that stopping drinking will make your other problems clearer, which can be scary, but as you said it is the only way you will be able to take action if you have to.
You can do this.
P
I am sorry things are hard there, but I can guarantee you that quitting drinking completely is the only way to make things better.
I too used drinking as an escape route for issues in my relationship, I still love my wife but things have been difficult for a while. I can tell you that stopping drinking will make your other problems clearer, which can be scary, but as you said it is the only way you will be able to take action if you have to.
You can do this.
P
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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Powerful post! I can relate to soo much! You have to fight. Find ANY means that will work for you. In reality for me, the best part of the drinking was the first sip, the first hour. Looking at the bottle and knowing that I had enough to sustain me for the rest of the night. Waking up the next morning and as you I was frantically searching for the bottle I'd hidden somewhere. Was their anymore left? If so, I could drink it and go back to bed for a few hours.
The rest of the day was filled with self hatred, anxiety, shakes, sick, yada yada yada. If I took the good (or what I thought was the good) with the bad part of drinking I have literally lost days of my lifetime.
I am sorry you're here, you're not alone though.
The rest of the day was filled with self hatred, anxiety, shakes, sick, yada yada yada. If I took the good (or what I thought was the good) with the bad part of drinking I have literally lost days of my lifetime.
I am sorry you're here, you're not alone though.
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Join Date: Feb 2016
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FF, I am so sorry you are struggling right now.
If you have to wait for help, I don't know if I would stop cold turkey, are you able to go to the ER or able to have someone stay with you if you do? You should be monitored especially if this is not your first detox.
However, I would try to get yourself to a level of not blacking out if that's possible.
If your relationship with your husband were to break down, you'd want to be prepared and be present and aware as much as possible for yourself and for your kids.
You can do this! We are here for you.
Can you get in touch with someone from AA until the support worker gets in touch with you? And keep posting here and reading around.
You have lots of reasons why you keep drinking... you have even more reasons to quit. Don't stop trying.
You can do this.
If you have to wait for help, I don't know if I would stop cold turkey, are you able to go to the ER or able to have someone stay with you if you do? You should be monitored especially if this is not your first detox.
However, I would try to get yourself to a level of not blacking out if that's possible.
If your relationship with your husband were to break down, you'd want to be prepared and be present and aware as much as possible for yourself and for your kids.
You can do this! We are here for you.
Can you get in touch with someone from AA until the support worker gets in touch with you? And keep posting here and reading around.
You have lots of reasons why you keep drinking... you have even more reasons to quit. Don't stop trying.
You can do this.
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How are you doing now FF? I think Del makes some good suggestions - if you need medical support seeing your Dr or the ER is a good start.
Plugging yourself back into SR daily is not a bad idea either?
D
Plugging yourself back into SR daily is not a bad idea either?
D
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Have you thought any on a recovery plan FF?
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