Checking in and back at it - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read





Reply
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 11-21-2015, 06:00 PM   #1 (permalink)
Member
 
Charlie117926's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 586

Checking in and back at it


I had 61 days without a drop.

Life has been pretty stressful. Moving to a new house, kids starting different schools, two family members diagnosed with Alzheimer's and work...whew...work.

I have been with my company for 21 years. It's been clear that over the last 10 years or so that when projects start going south they put me in charge of them. I guess I should be flattered that they have that much faith and trust in me to "right the ship" or protect us from (or set the stage) for litigation. They are unaware of how I typically deal with stress, which is why I joined this site.

I know none of the above is any real reason to drink, but I did and I'm I have been pretty upset about it. Just when I was letting the guilt go i do this to myself.

It would have been 84 days today I believe but I only made it to 61 days. Anyway, I have not touched a drop in over 13 days. So I guess more than anything I am just coming clean to my SR friends. It's clear I have to learn how to deal with stressors in a better way. My sincere apologies to everyone and thanks for listening.
Charlie117926 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 9 Users Say Thank You to Charlie117926 For This Useful Post:
BixBees505 (11-21-2015), Healthygoals (11-21-2015), Hevyn (11-21-2015), keeppushing (11-23-2015), KiKi0615 (11-21-2015), least (11-21-2015), Opivotal (11-21-2015), thomas11 (11-22-2015), Tippingpoint (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 06:08 PM   #2 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 178,524
Blog Entries: 1
The important thing is you're back Charlie.
What improvements do you think you need to make to your recovery programme?

D
__________________
Dee74 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
Bird615 (11-21-2015), Charlie117926 (11-21-2015), Hevyn (11-21-2015), keeppushing (11-23-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 06:14 PM   #3 (permalink)
Member
 
Charlie117926's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 586
Hey Dee. Nice to hear from you. Thanks. I have always been a compulsive worrier and I believe I put much more stress on myself than I can handle. With that said and needing to overcome that aspect in my life I have to learn how to deal with overbearing stress whether legitimate or self induced. To be honest when I messed up it "felt" like it helped but as we all know and me too, that drinking did not assist in anyway with solving the problems at hand. I need to either find a constructive outlet or just stop worrying all together. Easier said than done. I am open to any suggestions if anyone has insight to overcome these things. I am all ears
Charlie117926 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Charlie117926 For This Useful Post:
BixBees505 (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 06:17 PM   #4 (permalink)
Learning to live again
 
Hevyn's Avatar
 

Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: New York - Catskill Mtns.
Posts: 38,558
I'm so glad you wanted to talk it over, Charlie. Proud of you - no reason to apologize. You sound more determined now. Sometimes we need further proof that it does us no good.
__________________
You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. Fr. Greg Boyle

A little voice deep inside me said, "Hello, I am here." It was a small voice, & sounded as if it were buried underneath the cushions of my couch. It was my soul...I had forgotten it.

Hevyn is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Hevyn For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-21-2015), Opivotal (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 06:22 PM   #5 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 178,524
Blog Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by Charlie117926 View Post
Hey Dee. Nice to hear from you. Thanks. I have always been a compulsive worrier and I believe I put much more stress on myself than I can handle. With that said and needing to overcome that aspect in my life I have to learn how to deal with overbearing stress whether legitimate or self induced. To be honest when I messed up it "felt" like it helped but as we all know and me too, that drinking did not assist in anyway with solving the problems at hand. I need to either find a constructive outlet or just stop worrying all together. Easier said than done. I am open to any suggestions if anyone has insight to overcome these things. I am all ears
here are some ideas on stress Charlie
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...44-stress.html

and this is a great link for devising your own recovery plan tailored to your needs - even if you've seen it before, read it again

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

D
__________________
Dee74 is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 11-21-2015, 06:48 PM   #6 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Anna's Avatar
 

Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 51,928
Charlie, I'm glad you're back and you haven't lost what you learned in those 61 days. Dealing with stress is tough, especially when you're busy. Meditation and yoga are both really helpful to me.
__________________
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Marianne Williamson
Anna is online now   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Anna For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-21-2015), Dee74 (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 07:36 PM   #7 (permalink)
Member
 
Charlie117926's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 586
Thanks everyone. Dee I looked at the links and strategy no. 6 on the stress management link is a huge one that I struggle with. The 2nd link is pretty long so I will make it my nightly reading till complete.

Even though I screwed up I have to say being sober even though for a short term by many on here (a record for me) was extremely beneficial. Felt better physically, the punching bags under my eyes were gone. I have lost 38 lbs ( it fell off in lightning speed) and my sleep was back to normal. Sometimes I wonder if I should have ever traded my tool belt for a pen and computer with regard to work. Would things be different today. "What ifs" have really been strong over the last two months. I guess reflecting is part of the healing process. Now I'm just ranting. Thanks for listening.
Charlie117926 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Charlie117926 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 08:08 PM   #8 (permalink)
bona fido dog-lover
 
least's Avatar
 

Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: eastern USA
Posts: 80,226
Blog Entries: 32
I failed so many times before I 'got it right'. Don't give up. Keep trying until you get it right. I never thought I could make it but now have almost six years.

__________________
I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them.

Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole.

Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus

Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley

least is online now   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to least For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-21-2015), Dee74 (11-21-2015)
Old 11-21-2015, 08:23 PM   #9 (permalink)
Member
 
KiKi0615's Avatar
 

Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Hey Charlie, why don't you join the November 2015 Class? We have a great group!!! :-)
__________________
By the Grace of God...Iíve been sober since 12/31/17.
KiKi0615 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 3 Users Say Thank You to KiKi0615 For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-21-2015), Dee74 (11-21-2015), Tippingpoint (11-21-2015)
Old 11-22-2015, 02:34 AM   #10 (permalink)
Member
 
Meraviglioso's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: Italy
Posts: 3,932
Hey Charlie, I have been thinking about you. Good to see you back. Keep at it. YOu just have to keep going. Stick close to here, come on here and get out your frustrations next time. You know drinking does nothing to solve any issue.
Sending you a big hug and again, I'm really glad to see you back.
Meraviglioso is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to Meraviglioso For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-22-2015)
Old 11-22-2015, 08:26 AM   #11 (permalink)
Member
 
HeartsAfire's Avatar
 

Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Deep in the heart of Texas
Posts: 1,736
Blog Entries: 9
I'm glad you're back, my friend.
__________________
"After a while I looked in the mirror and realized...WOW. After all those hurts, scars and bruises, after all of those trials, I really made it through. I did it. I survived that which was supposed to kill me. So I straightened my crown...and walked away like a boss."
HeartsAfire is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following User Says Thank You to HeartsAfire For This Useful Post:
Charlie117926 (11-22-2015)
Reply


Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Thread Tools


Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 06:13 PM.