phoenix75

On our road to recovery, whether on Day 0, 1, 2, or 1,000 it’s always good to remember the power of alcohol and drugs. I’m only on Day 5 without alcohol so I’m early in my recovery but wanted to share the following with all of you as you start, struggle or continue in recovery. Maybe it’s been posted before. If it has I apologize for posting it again. I found this last year as I was searching for what was wrong with me and was in the beginning stages of coming out of denial and trying to find my way. It still has taken awhile and lots of losses since but every sober day is a good day.


I hate meetings! I hate higher power! I hate anyone who has a program! To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death, I wish you suffering!

Allow me to introduce myself!

I am the disease of alcoholism and drug addiction-------

Cunning, baffling, and powerful, that’s me. I have killed millions and I’m pleased.

I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover.

I have given you comfort, have I not? Wasn’t I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die, didn’t you call me? I was there!

I love to make you hurt! I love to make you cry! Better yet, I love it when I make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry. You can’t feel anything at all. This is my true Glory!

I will give you instant gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering. I’ve been there for you always, when things were going right in your life, you invited me in. You said you didn’t deserve these good things, and I was the only one who would agree with you.

Together we were able to destroy all good things in your life! People don’t take me seriously!

They take heart attacks, strokes and even diabetes seriously. Fools that they are they don’t know that without my help these things would not be made possible.

I am such a hated disease----And yet, I do not come uninvited. You choose to have me. So many have chosen me over reality and peace.

More than you hate me, I hate all of you who have a 12-step program. Your programs, your meetings, your support, your Higher Power all weaken me and I can’t function in a manner I am accustomed to.

Now I must lie here quietly. You don’t see me, but I am growing bigger than ever. When you only exist, I may live. When you only live, I only exist.

But I am here and until we meet again, if we meet again, I wish you suffering and death!

Signed,

Your Disease

Dee74

I think, everytime it's posted someone new sees it, so thanks Phoenix

D

thomas11

That is a very well thought out and articulate post. And soooo true. Thank you for that. Especially the part of being so numb you can neither feel enough to cry or laugh. You just exist.

Bird615

Thank you!
It always helps me to recognize my addiction as something that is not who I am and that wants me dead.

Soberwolf

Thank you

tomsteve

powerful and true!
reminds me of ozzy's song, demon alcohol


i'm sick and tired of your excuses
Can't deal with living anymore
I'll give you reasons to continue
While you lie writhing on the floor

I'll wash away your lies
And have you hyptotized
There'll be no compromise today
I'll share your life of shame
I think you know my name
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
I'll get you

If you could deal with your reflection
I'm sure you'd see into my eyes
There'll be no need for resurrection
Let's drink to people of the lies

Although that one's too much
You know ten's not enough
There'll be no compromise today
I'll watch you lose control
Consume your very soul
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
Ha ha, demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
Let's party

I'm sick and tired of resolutions
You've quit me time and time again
Don't speak of suicide solutions
You took my hand, I'm here to stay

This time it's you or me
I'll never set you free
There'll be no compromise today
So satisfy your lust
Too much can't be enough
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (the demon alcohol)
Ha ha, demon alcohol, (the demon alcohol)
Let's party