Here we go again.
Here we go again.
Been battling for years. I'm so sick of the withdrawls. I get the worst anxiety after I stop and feel like I am dying. I've developed panic disorder which I'm sure has everything to do with my substance abuse. So here I am again. Went to the ER last weekend to get meds to detox and less than a week later, I'm drinking again. What will it take for me to finally learn a lesson? Just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am literally going insane. What is wrong with me?
Hi Rupert
there's nothing wrong with you that the rest of us don't have
SR really helped me - regular posting here, not only posting my own posts but responding to others too.
It helped me see that I used to put in a huge effort into staying drunk - I needed to put that same effort into staying sober and SR is a good way to start that.
Stick around this time - why not join our Class of November support thread?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-3.html
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there's nothing wrong with you that the rest of us don't have
SR really helped me - regular posting here, not only posting my own posts but responding to others too.
It helped me see that I used to put in a huge effort into staying drunk - I needed to put that same effort into staying sober and SR is a good way to start that.
Stick around this time - why not join our Class of November support thread?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-3.html
D
Battled alcohol for years, too, so I can relate to what you're going through. I ended up in the ER three times because of panic attacks. I thought I was dying.
Coming here helps me a lot. So does AA. I've met people with problems just like me who were working to stay sober, or had achieved a long period of sobriety.
I understood them, and they me. I felt a load lifted off my back. If others could stay sober, it gave me an inkling of hope that I could, too.
It's been four years ten months since I've felt the need to drink. And I was a bad drunk. Drinking whiskey at eight in the morning, then beer the rest of the day.
I did this for years.
I did curl up in a ball and cry. I felt hopeless and this was the life I was doomed to live. Meeting others with the same problem helped me so much.
We had the same thing 'wrong' with us. We were alcoholics and we couldn't Control our drinking.
It took hitting a deep bottom for me to finally stop drinking. I had fits and starts at first and drank, but it was never the same.
I feel for you. I was in your shoes. Recovery is possible, but it takes motivation, work and willingness with an open mind.
You're in my thoughts, my friend, there is hope. We can recover, and I hope you do.
Coming here helps me a lot. So does AA. I've met people with problems just like me who were working to stay sober, or had achieved a long period of sobriety.
I understood them, and they me. I felt a load lifted off my back. If others could stay sober, it gave me an inkling of hope that I could, too.
It's been four years ten months since I've felt the need to drink. And I was a bad drunk. Drinking whiskey at eight in the morning, then beer the rest of the day.
I did this for years.
I did curl up in a ball and cry. I felt hopeless and this was the life I was doomed to live. Meeting others with the same problem helped me so much.
We had the same thing 'wrong' with us. We were alcoholics and we couldn't Control our drinking.
It took hitting a deep bottom for me to finally stop drinking. I had fits and starts at first and drank, but it was never the same.
I feel for you. I was in your shoes. Recovery is possible, but it takes motivation, work and willingness with an open mind.
You're in my thoughts, my friend, there is hope. We can recover, and I hope you do.
Rupert, it's alcoholism and I have it too. It doesn't make sense and never will until the plug is firmly in the jug. It only takes a few days/weeks to start feeling better but it Will get better. Too many folks here proving that daily. Get over the hump with help form a dr. if needed--any which way--and join us. W/out the booze we're all just people and worthy ones at that.
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Hi, Rupert
Substance abuse does make people somewhat insane when the addiction is active. Recognizing that is one of the key stepping-stones back to sobriety and sanity.
Tip the balance, gain some traction and build on it. Make plans for how to get through the urges. Make your own routine for living sober and healthy every day. Fill your head with sobriety-supporting wisdom from SR and other sources. Find better ways to deal with life issues instead of seeking the easy chemical high.
You can do it, and you don't have to do it alone. Best wishes!
Substance abuse does make people somewhat insane when the addiction is active. Recognizing that is one of the key stepping-stones back to sobriety and sanity.
Tip the balance, gain some traction and build on it. Make plans for how to get through the urges. Make your own routine for living sober and healthy every day. Fill your head with sobriety-supporting wisdom from SR and other sources. Find better ways to deal with life issues instead of seeking the easy chemical high.
You can do it, and you don't have to do it alone. Best wishes!
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: US
Posts: 5,095
Hi Rupert
San Jose and Morgan Hill are where I got sober the first time 12 years ago. Did it through AA. There are sooooo many great meetings in that area..have you thought about trying that? I'm not an AA anymore because I live in an extremely small and religious area now....AA is more Christian based than church here and very tame to say the least. I'd scare the people here If not try admitting to a detox facility and at least let them help you get a week (or more) under your belt. Hang in there.
San Jose and Morgan Hill are where I got sober the first time 12 years ago. Did it through AA. There are sooooo many great meetings in that area..have you thought about trying that? I'm not an AA anymore because I live in an extremely small and religious area now....AA is more Christian based than church here and very tame to say the least. I'd scare the people here If not try admitting to a detox facility and at least let them help you get a week (or more) under your belt. Hang in there.
Rupert, this disease robs us of everything. We do understand how difficult this is.
Try to come up with a plan that will see you through the early days and into long-term recovery.
Try to come up with a plan that will see you through the early days and into long-term recovery.
Rupert,
You joined this website in 2010 and you have 9 posts. That's not even 2 posts per year.
If you are serious about getting sober, why don't you join the Class Of November 2015 (or whatever this month's group is called). Then get actively involved with that group.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5645444
You joined this website in 2010 and you have 9 posts. That's not even 2 posts per year.
If you are serious about getting sober, why don't you join the Class Of November 2015 (or whatever this month's group is called). Then get actively involved with that group.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5645444
Last edited by Dee74; 11-15-2015 at 01:48 PM. Reason: corrected wrong info about where thread was, added link :)
My panic attacks were horrific and went on for the better part of 6 years...then it got worse and the severe head racing and hallucinations were so frightening, it made the anxiety seem like a cake walk...Now sober over 3 years all of it is GONE. It took me time and time again too...2 bad years and 4 horrific years of realizing I had a problem and trying to get sober over and over again.
One day I just woke up and realized I'd had enough...once I got to 90 days (which was longer than I ever had before) I just decided to keep going.
You can do it too...SR, Rehab, meetings, church, volunteer...whatever it takes. Fill your schedule with things to be accountable for and when drinking sounds good...play the tape all the way through...
One day I just woke up and realized I'd had enough...once I got to 90 days (which was longer than I ever had before) I just decided to keep going.
You can do it too...SR, Rehab, meetings, church, volunteer...whatever it takes. Fill your schedule with things to be accountable for and when drinking sounds good...play the tape all the way through...
Been battling for years. I'm so sick of the withdrawls. I get the worst anxiety after I stop and feel like I am dying. I've developed panic disorder which I'm sure has everything to do with my substance abuse. So here I am again. Went to the ER last weekend to get meds to detox and less than a week later, I'm drinking again. What will it take for me to finally learn a lesson? Just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am literally going insane. What is wrong with me?
Part of what it took for me to finally stop drinking seriously was that I needed to address the underlying issues and accept the fact that there were no shortcuts to getting sober and staying sober. I've only stopped drinking for 95 days now and cannot believe how my better I feel....like I am getting back to healthy person I was before drinking became a 'problem'. SR has really been helpful. I like to post/write, but I also like to read what other people write!! Lots of wisdom and understanding.
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