Kaily

As title although one of my dogs isn't happy with me tonight and refuses to sleep. I feel like I want to drink to more than oblivion

KiKi0615

I care. (((Hug)))

entropy1964

What's going on Kaily?

Kaily

Really struggling

esinger

You care or you wouldn't be reaching out. That's the first step.

Be good to yourself and put down the drink. It's not the answer and only makes things worse.

Take care

GoesWithTheFlow

What's going on? What triggered this relapse? Maybe you should just take a step away from the booze and chill a bit.

ScottFromWI

We are here and we care. You care too inside otherwise you wouldn't be here Kaily. How about having some water and getting rid of the alcohol?

FeelingGreat

Kaily, these forums are filled with people who have families and friends who care very much, and it doesn't make a difference to them. We've all found that the 'care' has to come from ourselves.
I'm guessing you could have a ring of caring people around you and you'd still want to drink because you haven't developed that picture of a sober you to strive towards.
I had no-one who was really aware of my drinking (home alone) but eventually stopped because I needed to see myself as a better person. Think about who you want to be, what your life will be like in a year or 5 years. Create a vision to aim towards.

Kaily

I did type a proper reply but got signed out in the process. Lonely/alone horrible!

GoesWithTheFlow

That's happened to me before and it sucks... Most of the time I remember to select all and copy the text.

Lonely and alone. I know how you feel. I have felt this way many times this week. Today I went to play tennis with a group of friends and I felt happy because I was with people I liked Do you have any people you can hang out with or talk to tonight? Maybe people that are sober.

leviathan

Boy, that stinks for real. I've been there. The drink made it worse.

Bottom line: it just doesn't help. What will for you will show up eventually (sooner rather than later, I hope). It will get better. Just put that stuff down. It will NEVER help you.

Kaily

No

Kaily

I am far to drunk to be sensible ...

Kaily

So much self pity I am sorry..

Paris is so much in my thoughts

GoesWithTheFlow

At this particular moment you don't feel like getting sober (since drinking), but what in your past has made you decide that you want to or need to get sober?

Elseware

I care, Kaily. Have some compassion and care for yourself. Put your arms around your body and give yourself rhythmic pats. Breathe deep and slow. It really does help.

Kaily

Sleeps now x

GoesWithTheFlow

Your sleepy. Good night. I hope you don't feel to bad in the morning.

SoberLeigh

I care, too, Kaily - truly.

Try to drink some water before you get to bed. Drink plenty of water tomorrow, eat small, light meals and try to get some fresh air.

Remember to come back here tomorrow to talk to your friends.

emme99

I care too Kaily. I feel lonely & alone a lot too but it helps to reach out here because as long as you are here, you are never really alone. Keeping you in my thoughts.