Couldn't quite make it
 

Blood pressure got too high.

Systolic was ER ready. Decided to take a few shots instead to bring it down. Not drunk by any stretch, but have had a conversation with my husband about tapering over the next week and controlling the exact amounts for me.

I will get out of this hell. I am so determined with no desire to keep drinking. Even today. Just to keep from dying. I am so freaking done with it all.

Stick with it Sobertaurus, you will get there. Keep posting :-)

Know you've been having a rough few days. Earlier you'd mentioned going to the ER if necessary , what made you change your mind?

I tapered.

Don't be discouraged! You have the desire! I'm glad you're okay.

Tapering doesn't work for most people, and the people on this site don't generally encourage it - but it was the right thing for me. It's just there isn't really a scientific way to do it, and prescription drugs do a better and safer job. I was too ignorant to know that it was dangerous to taper. Thankfully I survived.

I had a long and honest conversation with my husband with lots of tears. He will taper for me and I will have no access to alcohol. I honestly don't want it. My desire to quit is so high...I've wanted to quit so many times in the past, but this is a totally different thing. I'm done with it. It is killing me and destroying my life. I don't want to sit in a hospital for this as my drive is so darn strong right now I truly believe with the support of my family we can do this.

And I think it was a wake up call to my family and friends how serious my problem was that I couldn't make it safely...they are behind me now.

Sobertaurus I commend your determination, but please be very careful. Tapering is a slippery slope...I'm glad you have your husband to keep an eye on you.
Your desire and commitment will get you there, be strong.
Best of luck to you.

There's no shame in seeing you doctor for a little help. As serious as it is I can't see how a checkup could hurt. Looking back, I was lucky cuz I didn't realize the dangers until I had been in recovery. Good luck!

Maybe seeing your Dr is not a bad idea Sobertaurus?

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How are you today sobertaurus?

Thinking of you xoxo

Congratulations Sobertaurus on your determination to seek a sober healthy life. If you are unable to stop drinking without tapering off first -- are you under medical care as to what Is the right amount? and for how long do you continue? Definitely seems like out of control blood pressure points toward seeking medical advice --checking in with your doctor? My prayers are with you as you begin your journey in sobriety.