Sobertaurus

So discouraged. Drinking has been out of control every night. I drank half a 1.75 bottle of vodka just last night.

Took off work today but not even that hungover. Tolerance is so high but I've had minor alcohol withdrawals at work every day.

I gave to get off this crazy train. All I do is go to work and come home to drink.

I'm dropping it today. I have some benzos to help if wwithdrawal gets too bad and I'm taking magnesium and trying to rehydrate.

I have to stop this or I'm going to die from this alcohol and I'm scared.

zombob

Best wishes ST. Hopefully that was the last half of the half-gallon and careful with the benzo's--they generally are prescribed with a taper schedule. Can you see a dr. ?

Soberwolf

If your that scared and I was once too I actually very nearly died get a recovery plan going there's choice between AA, Smart, AVRT, Lifering etc

Logging in here daily will help massively

Sobertaurus

For a variety of reasons, I don't want to (involve the doc) at this time.

I think I can manage this without a separate medical intervention, but if it gets too bad I'll go into the ER.

I think I just need help and encouragement staying off the bottle. I live in a house with other drinkers and have asked about not having alcohol in the house but they don't agree. So, I have to work past the temptation.

Right now my mindset is easy for that, but come the evening it always goes to crap.

OnMyWay7

We're here for you anytime you need us. Stay strong

saoutchik

Good decision Sobertaurus.

I know it's stating the obvious but drink plenty of water during the first couple of days

Sobertaurus

Still holding strong. Actually been hungry. Just really tired.

SoberLeigh

We understand how hard this is; don't give up; stay close to us.

Read and post here often.

Here are some really good links:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ependence.html

SoberLeigh

Here is another, Sobertauras:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ependence.html

ccam1973

Hang in there ST. We are here when you need us.

Life will get so much better the further down the road you get. But for now, just concentrate on today. Do what ever you need to do to break the cycle.

Glad you're with us, you can do this!

Dee74

Ok...I won't press you on seeing the Dr thing...but what's your recovery plan?
how will you stay sober this time sobertaurus?

D

Sobertaurus

Thanks for all the support. Drinking Gatorade right now and trying to rest.

Right now the only part of my recovery plan is to plan out each evening with a goal of what I will do and rehearse it in my mind so that I don't come in the door and go straight to the bottle.

Tooshabby

You can do it, sobertaurus. keep posting :-)

zombob

Excellent! You can do it. Are doing it.

Sobertaurus

Visualization. Prayer. Possibly meditation. I'd like to add in exercise when I feel a bit better. Considering aa.

zombob

I ate everything in the house non-stop for the first week. Beats drinking and the body must have needed it. Onward!

Quirky

Sobertaurus, we are here for you. Keep posting and we will help each other along.
You are stronger than you know, and you can do this. Best wishes.

thomas11

Did you dump the other half of the bottle?