DaisyBee

I need AV to go away! I keep imagining going to the store to get a wine box with three servings and that voice is telling me that I deserve to have that and that it really won't hurt anything because it's not a full bottle. I have no accountability at home for the next 36 hours so I jumped on here.

I'm so specific with the plan that I'm plotting in my head. I think I need to make some other real life plans to keep me too occupied to drink.

Today is day 35 and I feel really weak.

CurlyGirl1978

Ok your AV is telling you that you deserve it, what it's not telling you is that it's trying to have it's way with you like a little cheap thrill at the expense of your own sorrows later. Sit back and think about your worst drunk or hangover experience and how you cried out for help and got here to SR...It was over the exact same thing...something your AV told you you "deserved."

Dee74

Remember that the AV has no power of its own. Without you, it simply can't get its fix.

You have all the power here Daisy - you're not weak at all

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CurlyGirl1978

Sorry DaisyBee, I saw myself in your shoes and felt for you and what you're going through, and I remembered how those little tiny steps led to horrible consequences, it was out of SR love.

Soberwolf

35 days is great try this

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

PurpleKnight

Thoughts without action still equals Sobriety!!

There's no harm in having thoughts, you then get to make the decision.

Ignoring them is an achievement DaisyBee!!

advbike

Just stop imagining it.

I relapsed for years thanks to my ability to still moderate to some degree, a fact my AV constantly reminded me of. However I finally had enough and when I did I chose to simply not listen to it anymore. I decided I was done, and with commitment comes strength.

Instead, the second one of those thoughts arose, I shut it down immediately, with "not an option!" Amazingly, I found that if I didn't "mull it over" or contemplate having a drink it was much easier, and after a while that little voice went away.

You are fully capable of the same. Good luck.

Anna

Daisy, Day 35 is fantastic! Good job!

Try to remember those thoughts are just thoughts. You can notice them and let them go because you choose to. They don't have power over you.

badger257

I gave in to my AV today.... Use my experience as motivation to not give in. It is NOT worth it. Starting again tomorrow.

soberclover

The more times you kick that AV down, the stronger you get. The stronger you get, the fewer cravings you will have . This is what I have found to be true. I did whatever I needed to do to get through the craving be it stay at home where it is alcohol-free, go to bed early, jump on SR, call a friend, clean, do laundry, reorganize my closet, move the furniture around, go swimming, go for a long walk, go to the bookstore, start a craft project,.....anything to stay focused on something else. This will get better!