Raeven

I was on Day 3 and really craving a glass of wine. I used to be able to stop and start no problem, so I thought I would try one glass. Kidding myself. Finished the bottle. One glass just removes all inhibition and control. Have to be serious. I guess I'm lucky, or not, that I don't feel much in the way of hangover. Maybe if I was sick as a dog it would be easier to avoid. Don't know.
But today I'm starting over. I know it will only get worse, not better, if I keep drinking. I've read others posts. I'm smart, I know better. I have to do this.
Today I make the choice to take back control.
I have to or risk losing what little I have left.
Thank you!

soulpower89

I have a whiteboard in my room...put a photo of a dream I have for next year in the centre of it...and surrounded it with inspirational quotes. One of them is "Don't be surprised if you're scared. It means you're about to do something really, really brave."
Also, - I am not what has happened to me. I am who I choose to become. I like that, because it really is in your hands. You might have to slip a couple times to realize what really matters to you, and that you are stronger than you think! Realizing, self-doubting, affirming, believing...it's all a journey towards knowing what path is right for you! Hang in there and keep going!

JD

Good for you for starting sobriety right up again. Learn from the experience and have a plan in place for next time your AV thinks you can have just one. The AV will try to convince you of that again.

biminiblue

You've got this, Raeven.

I cannot pick up that first drink. It may not go badly the first time I do it, but it will spin out at some point very soon.

Ask me how I know.

zombob

Good choice. Give your body what it wants for a week or so. For me that was non-stop eating (w/supplements) and as much quiet as I could find. Of course checking in here daily helps a lot. Best wishes .

Soberwolf

Good post Raeven it only gets worse

Have you got a plan check out these links

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html

doggonecarl

Still in denial that you have a problem?

Recovery starts with accepting that you do have a problem and accepting that the solution is never drinking again.

Accept the problem, commit to the solution, and do whatever it takes to support your decision to be sober. Emphasis on "Do whatever it takes."

CurlyGirl1978

Glad you're getting back up and trying again, we're rootin for you!

Raeven

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EMWEN

Good for you....stay with it . best to you.