When I relapsed last February, my Grandma didn't get mad at me really. I guess she was disappointed, yes, but she said something that really stuck with me. She said it's ok to slip and struggle as long as you get right back on the horse again. So I relapsed for an evening before I began again. You can do this and we are all here for you.
"Do not judge me by my successes, judge me by how many times I fell down and got back up again" - Nelson Mandela.