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Hi Fabat, I only have a quick minute to post. Slow down a little, you're ok. Many of us have been there. We know you've been drinking, just keep it together. Its going to be ok. You're a good person, with a common problem/addiction. I am behind you 100%.
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Originally Posted by Fabat50 
Yes. Yes. Am watching Elvis singing "In the Ghetto" live. Well he was live. He is dead now. Crying. Water and bed. yes.
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Very relieved to hear from you. Please never be mortified - most of us have been there. I've done reckless & out-of-character things when drunk. It's why I knew it couldn't continue. I literally became another person once it was in my system - a person I didn't even recognize.
You've made a great decision - I'm very excited for you. Please keep us informed - we are with you.
You've made a great decision - I'm very excited for you. Please keep us informed - we are with you.
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Fabat, thank you for updating us. We care. You really are making a lot of sacrifices for your sobriety. That's hard, but we're proud of you. You can do this!
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Fabat, you sound clear-headed and determined. Might I make one suggestion? I wouldn't put such a strict limit on length of rehab. I did an IOP at long last after struggling with relapses for two years - and yes, I was very determined. The first couple of weeks in IOP I kept thinking that I wasn't learning anything I didn't already know. Then I gradually let my guard down (without realizing it) and started learning some information that still helps me more than a year later.
One of the biggest outcomes of IOP was that it enabled me to stay sober for the duration of the group (3 months) and we were drug and alcohol tested at each meeting (3 times a week). By the time IOP was over, I had been sober long enough that I was able to stay that way. I had one very brief slip at about 7 months but dealt with it immediately (went to pdoc and was given meds) and have kept on going. No, it hasn't always been easy by any means but I have no regrets for the time and effort I have put in and continue to put in.
Giving myself permission to be human, with all that implies, Was the first and most meaningful step for me.
One of the biggest outcomes of IOP was that it enabled me to stay sober for the duration of the group (3 months) and we were drug and alcohol tested at each meeting (3 times a week). By the time IOP was over, I had been sober long enough that I was able to stay that way. I had one very brief slip at about 7 months but dealt with it immediately (went to pdoc and was given meds) and have kept on going. No, it hasn't always been easy by any means but I have no regrets for the time and effort I have put in and continue to put in.
Giving myself permission to be human, with all that implies, Was the first and most meaningful step for me.
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Hi guys. I just wanted to update you. My Dr has found me a rehab place.. am checked in for next Monday ( I have to arrive Sunday evening). I have absolutely no experience of rehab, and no knowledge of what it entails. What I do know is that the place my Dr and Therapist are sending me to is not a typical clinical environment. It is.. (I need to find the words on their website to explain better) but it is sort of like a family run residence. Of course there are Drs, Psychiatrists and specialists on hand.. But the emphasis is on peace, relaxation, exercise and enjoying nature. I am sharing a room with another person. In addition to the counselling and workshops we also cook all the meals together.. with fresh produce from the gardens etc. I really have no idea what is waiting for me. It seems like a very "alternative" type of place. But I do trust my medical team.
I have been drinking this week. I have kind of been thinking..."Well you are going to rehab so drink as much as you can before you get there." How dumb is that.
Wish me luck. I will be there for an "indefinite period" but 3 weeks strict minimum.
I have been drinking this week. I have kind of been thinking..."Well you are going to rehab so drink as much as you can before you get there." How dumb is that.
Wish me luck. I will be there for an "indefinite period" but 3 weeks strict minimum.
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That sounds like a fantastic plan Fabat....glad to hear you are going to be going somewhere you can get the help you need. I hope you can be safe with your drinking before you go, it won't make things any easier to keep it up.
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Originally Posted by Fabat50
I have been drinking this week. I have kind of been thinking..."Well you are going to rehab so drink as much as you can before you get there." How dumb is that.
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like most alcohlics, youre probably very intelligent.
its just thoughts from a sick mind.
and there is a solution!
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