where to begin 5 years down the line...
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where to begin 5 years down the line...
5 years, countless assaults, thousands of pounds of damages, public humiliations, theft, bank theft, broken into, accused, manipulated, beaten up by others with his lies, job controlled, broke and broken. The family name was to be protected so much so even AA and Al anon was controlled and manipulated. FB assassination time and time again. Where are we at today? Its all my fault, angry, nasty finger pointing, trying to prise me with booze and drugs to mess with my head, kept awake for days on end a shaking mess willing to do anything for peace. Picked him off the floor, he pushed me down the stairs, cowered in the bedroom with my dd he attempts to set fire to my house down stairs only after trashing my living room again.
Word on the street, I'm a drama queen, psychopath not him. He wanted me to drop bail, I managed but still nothing is ever good enough. He wants us to lie in court.
I don't have the strength anymore
Word on the street, I'm a drama queen, psychopath not him. He wanted me to drop bail, I managed but still nothing is ever good enough. He wants us to lie in court.
I don't have the strength anymore
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National Domestic Abuse Hotline (US)
The National Domestic Violence Hotline | Abuse Defined
The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support (US)
International Directory of Domestic Violence Agencies
Canada: Home « HotPeachPages International
UK: call Women’s Aid at 0808 2000 247.
Australia: call 1800RESPECT at 1800 737 732.
Worldwide: visit International Directory of Domestic Violence Agencies for a global list of helplines and crisis centers
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No one helps, woman's aid don't want to know as I don't make police statements.
I know he's home from the pub now, back to his caravan, lived in for a month, no one there to point fingers at so the texts have started.
When and at what point does the adrenaline high stop and I can switch off and be calm? I feel like a deflating helium balloon when I don't hear from him and flipping irritated when I do.
Its a game now, addicted to this tit for tat verbal abuse throwing, but when I get the sober call in the morning with the promise of straight back to mine after work, it seems a relief to then be apart of his game.
My heads throbbing with tension, anxiety, angina yet I'm " making it up"
I know he's home from the pub now, back to his caravan, lived in for a month, no one there to point fingers at so the texts have started.
When and at what point does the adrenaline high stop and I can switch off and be calm? I feel like a deflating helium balloon when I don't hear from him and flipping irritated when I do.
Its a game now, addicted to this tit for tat verbal abuse throwing, but when I get the sober call in the morning with the promise of straight back to mine after work, it seems a relief to then be apart of his game.
My heads throbbing with tension, anxiety, angina yet I'm " making it up"
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UB , we have more power than we realize...you have more power than you realize!
We can get caught up in a mindset of the drama and chaos and catastrophe..also the investment of the relationship on all its levels. It can becomes our all consuming purpose!!addiction!!
I believe when you decide that no matter what it takes you are going to walk away and leave all of that behind you, you will experience the most wonderful sense of relief...♥
We can get caught up in a mindset of the drama and chaos and catastrophe..also the investment of the relationship on all its levels. It can becomes our all consuming purpose!!addiction!!
I believe when you decide that no matter what it takes you are going to walk away and leave all of that behind you, you will experience the most wonderful sense of relief...♥
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Originally Posted by soberwolf 
Make full use of Anna's links can you stay with a friend or family 
At the moment, his fathers moved out of his home, downgraded and given away all his furniture, he's gone around 4 pubs offering it out and delivering it, me? I got nothing, my living rooms trashed not even a TV for the kids, but "oh, not him, he's a great guy"
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Well know one thing your not alone you have found us
There are women here who have been through what you are currently going through try not to panic and stress yourself out
Are you finally ready to leave can you make contact with your family as if this continues its only going to get worse I think deep down you know that & it pains me to say it as you are obviously hurting
Stick around SR please think about your safety
There are women here who have been through what you are currently going through try not to panic and stress yourself out
Are you finally ready to leave can you make contact with your family as if this continues its only going to get worse I think deep down you know that & it pains me to say it as you are obviously hurting
Stick around SR please think about your safety
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Yes, thank you for your response, I'm now crying it bloody hurts. Found another section in this site which is probably more apt.
Yes I'm safe, money is what I need and he knows it. Mental, physical, emotional and financial abuse with heavy daily alcoholic and light drug abuse.
Yes I'm safe, money is what I need and he knows it. Mental, physical, emotional and financial abuse with heavy daily alcoholic and light drug abuse.
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Originally Posted by Notimetoloose
UB , we have more power than we realize...you have more power than you realize!
We can get caught up in a mindset of the drama and chaos and catastrophe..also the investment of the relationship on all its levels. It can becomes our all consuming purpose!!addiction!!
I believe when you decide that no matter what it takes you are going to walk away and leave all of that behind you, you will experience the most wonderful sense of relief...♥
We can get caught up in a mindset of the drama and chaos and catastrophe..also the investment of the relationship on all its levels. It can becomes our all consuming purpose!!addiction!!
I believe when you decide that no matter what it takes you are going to walk away and leave all of that behind you, you will experience the most wonderful sense of relief...♥
I left for three months last year, he jumped into the next girls bed. We had zero contact, folk were and still are calling me by her name. I can't undo the brainwashing he's put in there!!! His copying my breathing his whispers in my ear for no one else to hear, his taunts he sits and watches me explode. Give me strength to leave please
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You say you have children. Surely you don't want them growing up thinking this is normal. Think of them. Read about adult children of alcoholics to get some insight. Get legal advice and find some family support organisations. Go to a refuge. Get help. It is not just about you and him. There are innocent little people caught up in this. Let them give you strength. Children sadly often don't get given a voice.
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Originally Posted by Lolabella
You say you have children. Surely you don't want them growing up thinking this is normal. Think of them. Read about adult children of alcoholics to get some insight. Get legal advice and find some family support organisations. Go to a refuge. Get help. It is not just about you and him. There are innocent little people caught up in this. Let them give you strength. Children sadly often don't get given a voice.
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