I'm ready to do this
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I'm ready to do this
Hello! I'm ready to quit drinking. I really am. It never leads me anywhere good and after last weekend's hangover (or should I say withdrawal, because that is what it felt like) I need to remember that it will always get me to same place, or worse.
Besides my own realizations that I cannot drink in safety, that I don't enjoy 1-2 drinks, that I only want to drink if I can get blackout hammered, I've had some other realizations from my family...
I lost my father to lung complications earlier this year.
My one brother, not even out of his 40's, is lying in bed half the time suffering from a bout of things, not the least of which also involve his lungs.
My other brother called me last night to tell me he's entering a 6 month rehab program. I don't even know what for yet because I missed the call and can't call him back. I have to wait for a letter.
So I need to rid myself of alcohol and of cigarettes. I'm really a genuinely happy person and I hate what I do to myself and my loved ones when I get out of control. Why do I do it? I've ALWAYS been this way with alcohol. I never drank normally and I started young. The part of my brain that says "enough is enough" doesn't work and maybe never did.
So here's to day 4 and many more to come. I just need to learn to accept myself as a non-drinker. I was doing a good job of getting my friends and family to accept me as one, but then after losing my father I kind of bounced back into old habits. I don't want to let that be an excuse for me to destroy myself, though. I've got a lot to live for and I want to get as much out of life as I can, not muddle through and shorten it over something as dumb as getting wasted.
Thanks for listening to my rant!
Besides my own realizations that I cannot drink in safety, that I don't enjoy 1-2 drinks, that I only want to drink if I can get blackout hammered, I've had some other realizations from my family...
I lost my father to lung complications earlier this year.
My one brother, not even out of his 40's, is lying in bed half the time suffering from a bout of things, not the least of which also involve his lungs.
My other brother called me last night to tell me he's entering a 6 month rehab program. I don't even know what for yet because I missed the call and can't call him back. I have to wait for a letter.
So I need to rid myself of alcohol and of cigarettes. I'm really a genuinely happy person and I hate what I do to myself and my loved ones when I get out of control. Why do I do it? I've ALWAYS been this way with alcohol. I never drank normally and I started young. The part of my brain that says "enough is enough" doesn't work and maybe never did.
So here's to day 4 and many more to come. I just need to learn to accept myself as a non-drinker. I was doing a good job of getting my friends and family to accept me as one, but then after losing my father I kind of bounced back into old habits. I don't want to let that be an excuse for me to destroy myself, though. I've got a lot to live for and I want to get as much out of life as I can, not muddle through and shorten it over something as dumb as getting wasted.
Thanks for listening to my rant!
Sobriety is Traditional
Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
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There's a bunch of other folks who are just signing up today. Here's a thread to keep up with those who start trying to stay sober around the same time as you:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-3-a-17.html
And this is a good place to check in daily:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post5618202
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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Welcome to SR, GotItthisTime.
I am sorry to hear of your father's passing and the health issues of your brothers.
I am glad that you are giving yourself the opportunity to turn your life around and to strive for a healthy future.
ColdFusion posted some great links.
Congratulations on Day 4.
Glad you found us.
I am sorry to hear of your father's passing and the health issues of your brothers.
I am glad that you are giving yourself the opportunity to turn your life around and to strive for a healthy future.
ColdFusion posted some great links.
Congratulations on Day 4.
Glad you found us.
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Canada
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I am glad you found this site, it's a great place to connect with others who Get It. I too am so sorry about your father's passing. Maybe, you can stay strong in honor of his memory. When I lost a dear friend it's what helped me get through, just a suggestion. Keep reading and posting and working on your sobriety everyday! You can do it!
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Great to have you with us, GotIt. You sound motivated. I agree, it never leads us anywhere good - wish I hadn't taken so long to admit that.
Congrats on reaching Day 4 without alcohol. You're doing this.
Congrats on reaching Day 4 without alcohol. You're doing this.
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