Today's the day!
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Today's the day!
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Well I finally admit realise that alcohol is controlling me, every morning I wake up saying this is the day and by six o'clock in the evening I've convinced myself it's ok to have a glass of red! I function ok but I have lost days as been to sick to get out of bed or missed out on things as my heads all over the place. I look at other people and think oh they are drinking and ok so I can drink and be ok too. I'm 48 and I have pretty much drank since around the age of 16 I've had times in my life where I haven't drank for a year or a couple of months but that was a long time ago. Every event get together I have planned the first thing I think of is good I can have a drink and someone else can drive. I never go out without drinking I find it difficult and in a way I hide behind alcohol. Ok I've said it I have never said this to anyone and people that know me would be shocked to read this as I hide my addiction well. This is the first day of me not drinking, well it's only 9am but I am going to stick with it and with this site as I need this before I ruin my life I so much want to be back in control of my life. Thanks for reading this any support would be amazing please go easy on me as feeling fragile!
Well I finally admit realise that alcohol is controlling me, every morning I wake up saying this is the day and by six o'clock in the evening I've convinced myself it's ok to have a glass of red! I function ok but I have lost days as been to sick to get out of bed or missed out on things as my heads all over the place. I look at other people and think oh they are drinking and ok so I can drink and be ok too. I'm 48 and I have pretty much drank since around the age of 16 I've had times in my life where I haven't drank for a year or a couple of months but that was a long time ago. Every event get together I have planned the first thing I think of is good I can have a drink and someone else can drive. I never go out without drinking I find it difficult and in a way I hide behind alcohol. Ok I've said it I have never said this to anyone and people that know me would be shocked to read this as I hide my addiction well. This is the first day of me not drinking, well it's only 9am but I am going to stick with it and with this site as I need this before I ruin my life I so much want to be back in control of my life. Thanks for reading this any support would be amazing please go easy on me as feeling fragile!
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Originally Posted by Jenniferjenn 
Hi there
Well I finally admit realise that alcohol is controlling me, every morning I wake up saying this is the day and by six o'clock in the evening I've convinced myself it's ok to have a glass of red! I function ok but I have lost days as been to sick to get out of bed or missed out on things as my heads all over the place. I look at other people and think oh they are drinking and ok so I can drink and be ok too. I'm 48 and I have pretty much drank since around the age of 16 I've had times in my life where I haven't drank for a year or a couple of months but that was a long time ago. Every event get together I have planned the first thing I think of is good I can have a drink and someone else can drive. I never go out without drinking I find it difficult and in a way I hide behind alcohol. Ok I've said it I have never said this to anyone and people that know me would be shocked to read this as I hide my addiction well. This is the first day of me not drinking, well it's only 9am but I am going to stick with it and with this site as I need this before I ruin my life I so much want to be back in control of my life. Thanks for reading this any support would be amazing please go easy on me as feeling fragile!
Well I finally admit realise that alcohol is controlling me, every morning I wake up saying this is the day and by six o'clock in the evening I've convinced myself it's ok to have a glass of red! I function ok but I have lost days as been to sick to get out of bed or missed out on things as my heads all over the place. I look at other people and think oh they are drinking and ok so I can drink and be ok too. I'm 48 and I have pretty much drank since around the age of 16 I've had times in my life where I haven't drank for a year or a couple of months but that was a long time ago. Every event get together I have planned the first thing I think of is good I can have a drink and someone else can drive. I never go out without drinking I find it difficult and in a way I hide behind alcohol. Ok I've said it I have never said this to anyone and people that know me would be shocked to read this as I hide my addiction well. This is the first day of me not drinking, well it's only 9am but I am going to stick with it and with this site as I need this before I ruin my life I so much want to be back in control of my life. Thanks for reading this any support would be amazing please go easy on me as feeling fragile!
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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Good for you! I was basically the same as you, but then pretty much stopped going out and drank my wine at home alone....the social part of it stopped seeming to matter towards the end of my drinking days.
Lots of good people here. Keep hanging out and posting!
Lots of good people here. Keep hanging out and posting!
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This is so me too. I'm starting day 2 for the umpteenth time. I started drinking in my teens too as a coping mechanism for depression and anxiety. Fast forward to 50 and I'm doing the same thing. I was drinking a bottle of wine every night. Like you, I'm very functional and hide my addiction well. I'm also taking meds for my anxiety and depression (which I know I'm not supposed to mix with alcohol). Starting yesterday, I decided to move away from my addiction and instead concentrate on good health. My concentration is now on healthy food for meals, lots of water, and excercising. I feel ashamed of how I've treated my body and it's time to turn it around. I relate to you and feel your pain. You can do this, I can do this.
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Welcome to SR, Jennifer!
I fought the same battle for a few years, every morning I would wake up and promise myself I wouldn't drink that night, but that evening I'd uncork another bottle.
I agree with Carver above- tonight when it's close to Wine O'Clock, mix up your schedule with other things as a distraction. You will likely still be thinking about it, but just push through. We'll be here!
I fought the same battle for a few years, every morning I would wake up and promise myself I wouldn't drink that night, but that evening I'd uncork another bottle.
I agree with Carver above- tonight when it's close to Wine O'Clock, mix up your schedule with other things as a distraction. You will likely still be thinking about it, but just push through. We'll be here!
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Welcome Jenn. I'm 50 and one of the cool things about not drinking is I look so much better. I know, that's very superficial but it is motivating. Skin is glowing, wrinkles less wrinkly, no puffiness, losing weight. All good stuff. And drinking daily for women really increases our risks for breast cancer....so there's that.
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Welcome Jenn. I used to hide my addiction well too. You will find that with some time under your belt, you will be so much happier. It's very gratifying and empowering to not have your life dictated by alcohol.
Welcome aboard and stay close to SR. This community can be a great source for recovery if you are willing to put in the time.
Welcome aboard and stay close to SR. This community can be a great source for recovery if you are willing to put in the time.
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