finished10105

Hi everyone,

I am starting again a journey of sobriety. I am an alcoholic. And I am about to lose everything that is beautiful in my life because of it. Wish me luck, I am detoxing at home, day 1. I hope I can beat this once and for all. I love my son and husband so much, he is going to leave me if I do not change.

Thank you-finished

Cholula

Welcome to the forum. I'm on day 3 and this is a great place for support and advice.

overthis

Congrats on day 1! That is a huge step. I am on day 5 and this site has been such a great resource so welcome and keep coming back!

firstymer

Welcome to SR, finished. I am glad you are here with us. I found this place 2 years ago, hung-over, hopeless and guilt-ridden. With the support of the good people here, I haven't had a drink since the day I joined SR. I wish the same for you.

Good luck. You can DO this.

stevepearce

Welcome. This is a fabulous site. Glad you have found us. Sending you love and strength.

joeconrad

Hey, this is the first day of the rest of your life. You can beat this because you deserve to be happy and healthy!

finished10105

Thanks everyone, I have done rehab and AA. Only to relapse with more severity each time. I am really afraid that I cannot overcome this. But all I can do is to keep trying.

joeconrad

Have you spoken to a doc about your detox or are you going solo? Not judging, but want you to be safe.

finished10105

Doing solo, not heavy enough drinking that would merit getting a doctor involved. Mild hand shaking in the morning. Tapered with beer yesterday. White wine was my poison, 1 bottle per day. No hard liquor since 3 days ago.

finished10105

I appreciate your concern btw.

joeconrad

Good to hear. Yeah, I wasn't sure my daily vodka habit would result in serious withdrawal symptoms. I'm only 2 days in myself so I'm not in the clear yet. Drink lots of water, pop a B-complex vitamin daily if you can.

least

Welcome to the family. You'll find lots of support here.

DaisyBee

Welcome, finished. Fellow mom, wife and former 1-2 bottles of wine a night drinker (for MANY YEARS). It is poison and I'm so happy to be free of it 15 days later.

There is a good book that you might relate to called "Mommy Doesn't Drink Here Anymore" which was helpful to me.

You can do this. Keep posting, make a plan, take care of yourself and don't lose hope.

finished10105

Thanks. My husband is so angry with me. There is not a lot of support or compassion coming from him so I especially appreciate everyone's kindness. This is basically my last chance with him or else he will take our son away from me. As he put it, "let me drink myself to death alone".

joeconrad

Okay, this is serious then. You can and will prove your husband wrong. You're not going to let some chemical control you. Your son needs his mother.

Cholula

I was 3 - 6 bottles (some days more) a day of white wine drinker. Gave up vodka for wine cus' that made me feel like less of a problem for some reason. Hang in there. Day 3 for me and still shaking but the sweats are much better today.

finished10105

I know, I love him more than anything. He is my life. I just hope I can control myself. I don't trust myself anymore. It is really pathetic when you are afraid of being left alone, because that is when the temptation starts.

finished10105

Isn't it wierd that so many female alcoholics fall into the white wine trap? That and vodka are my demons.

Cholula

I know... I felt funny telling you all about drinking white wine as a dude. That's the problem you get to the point where the feelings of judgement flow even into stuped things like that.

Soberwolf

Welcome Finished