Clawing out of the depths
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Clawing out of the depths
Greetings everyone!
I found myself on this site two years ago after yet another day of waking up in a complete drunken fog, unable to remember what had happened the night before or what stupid things I may or may not have done or said. I promised myself that this was the last time I would wake up like this. Well, that lasted all of two days and I was back at it again for the next two years.
Fourteen days ago I woke up with the same fog and dread, pain in my organs, muddy jeans and skinned knees, a broken mirror all over the floor and zero recollection of the previous nights events. I decided then that this hell has to stop.
I spent 5 days detoxing in a bedroom (not the safest option) and reading the invaluable posts and articles available here on SR. It has been so comforting to read about others experiences and know I am not alone on this road of recovery. After drinking heavily for the last 12 years I know this is not going to be an easy process, but it sure is better than the alternative. So, with that, hello everyone and thank you!
I found myself on this site two years ago after yet another day of waking up in a complete drunken fog, unable to remember what had happened the night before or what stupid things I may or may not have done or said. I promised myself that this was the last time I would wake up like this. Well, that lasted all of two days and I was back at it again for the next two years.
Fourteen days ago I woke up with the same fog and dread, pain in my organs, muddy jeans and skinned knees, a broken mirror all over the floor and zero recollection of the previous nights events. I decided then that this hell has to stop.
I spent 5 days detoxing in a bedroom (not the safest option) and reading the invaluable posts and articles available here on SR. It has been so comforting to read about others experiences and know I am not alone on this road of recovery. After drinking heavily for the last 12 years I know this is not going to be an easy process, but it sure is better than the alternative. So, with that, hello everyone and thank you!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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hellow and welcome!!
y'know what?
I did EXACLTY the same thing.....
And now I'm almost two years sober, well beyond clawed-out of the depths and living a much happier, more fulfilling life without any of the horrible, despairing, miserable suffering of those days.
y'know what?
I did EXACLTY the same thing.....
And now I'm almost two years sober, well beyond clawed-out of the depths and living a much happier, more fulfilling life without any of the horrible, despairing, miserable suffering of those days.
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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On day five here too. Congratulations for surviving the detox (some say it is even longer before we are out of danger). Had a panic attack the other day during a meeting, so I think my GABA levels were out of whack (or something).
I am with you on the blackouts and unexplained events. Oh, the self-loathing and fear. These are things I do not miss.
I've got more resolve this time around than ever before, and it sounds like you do too! Heading to my 5th meeting in 5 days here soon, and it is helping. Maybe because I am letting it for once.
Congratulations and see you soon!
I am with you on the blackouts and unexplained events. Oh, the self-loathing and fear. These are things I do not miss.
I've got more resolve this time around than ever before, and it sounds like you do too! Heading to my 5th meeting in 5 days here soon, and it is helping. Maybe because I am letting it for once.
Congratulations and see you soon!
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