Major closet drinker...
 

OK so I just found this forum.. I drink at least every other day and I don't think I will be alive in 5 years unless I stop. I tell myself this every morning but to no avail. I am able to function and part of me thinks that this is OK though as I am reaching middle age now and frankly I don't have much that is of interest or exiting in my life as it is.

Thanks though for

Hello and welcome.
Do you feel despondent because of your drinking, like there is no hope?
I felt that way the last fifteen years of my drinking career. My only interest was drinking. Excitement for me was going to the liquor store at 8am to start the ball rolling.
I didn't drink every day at some points, but it was for sure every day at the end. It's progressive.
I never planned on seeing thirty because of my alcohol abuse. When I did reach it, I didn't know what to do, so I drank more.

Then the bottom fell out and I was a full blown alcoholic. Filled with fear, anxiety and shame after every bout. And, I was a bad drunk. I wasn't someone you would have wanted to know. Unless, of course, if you were another alcoholic to drink with.
There is hope. You'll find lots of support here. Some use a program of recovery like AA.
It's been over four and half years since this seemingly hopeless drunk has had a drink. One day at a time is how I manage it. I can do that.

Best to you. If you put the energy you put into recovery, you can't lose.

Glad you're here posting friend. Change is indeed possible if we first accept our condition and circumstances then become willing to seek the necessary help. A life with new opportunities I never before envisioned arise as we gain some sober time.

Hope you'll stick around - SR is a great place with lots of support!

Hi jrenaldi, welcome to SR. I knew that feeling only too well, wondering if the booze would kill me someday.

I managed to stop and stay stopped. Give it a go, why not. There is much life after booze.

you taken the first step... welcome !!!

Welcome! Xoxo

Welcome to the Forum Jrenaldi!! :wave: