Just checking in, I hope everyone is ok
I am in a predicament at home, had a huge bust up with my girlfriend today and her mum got involved. It ended up in them screaming at me. It started over something small but that was all it really needed which suggests to me that it's been brewing for a while. I'm pretty unhappy at home with my girlfriend. I have expressed this but neither of us want to leave the house. I am welcome at my mum and dads but I'm 31, a homeowner and value independence. There are many many issues between me and her, I used to think if I stopped drinking, things would get better. They've been worse than ever.
She does herbalife (not sure if anyone has heard of it) and wants to "build a business" from it. I keep saying that it will be very hard to do this and you really need proper marketing skills. She's totally shutting my advice out and determined to look at quitting her current job to sell herbalife products. She says I'm bringing her down and should support her. I feel that trying to discourage her from this pyramid scheme IS supporting her though.
There were a lot of nasty things said, she is very provocative in her actions and language and unfortunately I stupidly take the bait and look like the bad guy.
Alarm bells are ringing in my head though and I really feel I need to get out of the relationship and be on my own for a good while. I feel like I have some self development to do, a lot of relationships I've had have turned sour, perhaps I'm the common denominator. It is difficult with my daughter coming from a previous relationship and I put a lot of energy into her almost over the top because I'm trying to compensate for no longer being at her home. At the moment I have to put my daughter absolutely without question top priority and if that means being on my own so I can focus better, I'll have to do that.
My girlfriend wants to get married, have children etc. That is far far away from where my thinking is at the moment because of what is going on between us. I have explained this to her.
Anyone weighing in with advice is appreciated, I do have a lot to be grateful to my girlfriend for- the times when I used to drink night after night for years she did not bail on me then. But I hate what we've become.
Also tonight it is a friends birthday, it is a night on the town type situation. I'm going and it's most likely people will be drinking. I just want to document it. I'm going in confident but very VERY wary of the situation and that I will need to pre plan an exit strategy if required. I'm nearly a year now, I've dragged myself kicking and screaming through and if there is one thing I'll take from 2015 it's sobriety. Sober muscles workout time.