End of Day 5 - First real test
 

Hello friends, thought I would check in tonight because as soon as I begin to avoid this site is when I start to not be so honest with myself about drinking. So tonight I had my nephew's birthday party at a restaurant and definitely had a thought about getting a big old beer when I got there. It's funny the thought kept coming into my head today as a given, not even as a temptation. It was just restaurant = beer. Then I had a kind of stressful day at work and I kept kind of thinking, well in a few hours I'll be able to get my hands around that beer. I stopped myself every time but the sensation was like muscle memory.
Anyway, I got there and everyone ordered their drinks, some people beer but not everyone. I ordered a club soda and she forgot it but my husband got a beer and it was basically in front of me to drink if I wanted. I waited 20 minutes and asked her for it again and she brought it right away. It sucked but once I had the club soda I sat with my mom and started chatting and was okish. By the end of the dinner the temptation passed and my husband and I were had a long talk on the drive back about how long it's been since I was dry for more than a few days. It's definitely been over ten years. Probably since we got together and throughout my entire adulthood. I feel pretty sad about that. This is probably the longest I've gone and only a handful of times. It is weird how obsessed I let myself get with it and not realized it. I think maybe in a way it was something I used to procrastinate turning into an adult. Anyways here comes the long weekend and it is going to feel verrrrry long indeed. Going to try to use the time for healing and yoga and even try to eat a vegetable or two ;) on day 7 I will see if I can find a new way to celebrate because that is going to be a huge day for me.

Well done, Ohme.

There are a couple of good links for cravings and urges.

I'll post them in a moment.

As promised:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

Well done Ohme! You had your AV picking at you all day and, in the end, you shut it down. That's a huge victory because now you know you can. Our AV doesn't like it when we show it who is boss and the one really in control. Each time you have a victory like that, you gain strength. Once you get through this weekend, you will be even stronger! Keep at it. You are doing great!

You are two days ahead of me. Great job on resisting temptation. I'm sure it's going to take time for our brains to learn a different muscle memory.

I can totally relate to what you said about ten years. Outside of pregnancy I've drank pretty much everyday for a decade. There is a lot to learn in the days ahead.

Stay strong.

Hi Ohme, way to go on passing on that beer :)
Just keep doing it, eventually cravings pass and the longer stretch of time you can get the more they do so, I have faith you can accomplish it.
Glad you are with us!

:)

Love in sobriety

Well done. Keep going.

Great job on pushing through Ohme!! :scoregood

Thank you all for your kind words. Until I get my therapist stuff settled I have no support system aside from my husband and SR so it means so much to me. :tyou

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