So far away
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Greensboro NC
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So far away
Every day I drink, and every day I regret it. I buy enough whiskey to last for a week, and no matter how badly I want to quit, I cannot bring myself to pour the rest of the bottle down that drain. This is a repeated cycle that I have known for the last 17 years.
I quit earlier this year for nearly 6 months. I remember how extremely hard those first few weeks were, and I am so dreading that. Can I even do it again?
I know it gets easier. I've been there too. It just seems so far away.
I quit earlier this year for nearly 6 months. I remember how extremely hard those first few weeks were, and I am so dreading that. Can I even do it again?
I know it gets easier. I've been there too. It just seems so far away.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,380
Hi Joe 
you know what they say - there really is no better day to quit than today - another 17 years of that sounds unbearable.
Early recovery is hard - but it's less hard when you don't do it alone.
Maybe seeing a Dr could help if you're worried about withdrawal?
D
you know what they say - there really is no better day to quit than today - another 17 years of that sounds unbearable.
Early recovery is hard - but it's less hard when you don't do it alone.
Maybe seeing a Dr could help if you're worried about withdrawal?
D
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: San Francisco Bay Area
Posts: 319
I was doing the same thing, keeping a week's worth of vodka on hand. I've attempted to quit off an on for about 18 months.Last week was the first time I poured a full bottle of vodka down the kitchen sink. It was encompanied by an "Eff you Smirnoff, you're
Not screwing up my life!"
That was a very empowering experience for me. My feeling is that if you can't pour the stuff out, then you're not serious about quiting and you will fail. You're in the fight for your life, my friend. You can do this. Pour out that poison!
Not screwing up my life!"
That was a very empowering experience for me. My feeling is that if you can't pour the stuff out, then you're not serious about quiting and you will fail. You're in the fight for your life, my friend. You can do this. Pour out that poison!
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 2,872
If you think it's hard to quit now, keep on drinking.
I drank like you. I did it for twenty five years. I was afraid to stop because I knew what lay in wait for me. The withdrawal. The agonizing anxiety, the feelings of impending doom, the shakes, the sweats and the remorse for having gotten myself into this nightmare of a life.
If you continue on your path, and alcoholics are very predictable, you'll reach the point I did where I could neither quit nor keep drinking.
I'm not trying to scare you, I'm just being blunt on purpose.
I know the routine and the merry-go-round of swearing off booze, then going right back to it. I wasn't living any longer, I was existing. Barely.
I remember once hiding in my closet after a particularly bad bender, wracked with fear. The ring of the phone terrifying me.
I needed help to quit. In AA I found people just like me and they were sober. I found them here. It took many fits and starts, but with help I was able to stop drinking.
You can do it, too. You have to want it, and be willing to go to any length to get it.
It's been four years nine months since alcohol crossed my lips for this drunk.
Thank you for your post. It'll help keep me sober today. I wish the same for you. It can be done. I wish you the best.
I drank like you. I did it for twenty five years. I was afraid to stop because I knew what lay in wait for me. The withdrawal. The agonizing anxiety, the feelings of impending doom, the shakes, the sweats and the remorse for having gotten myself into this nightmare of a life.
If you continue on your path, and alcoholics are very predictable, you'll reach the point I did where I could neither quit nor keep drinking.
I'm not trying to scare you, I'm just being blunt on purpose.
I know the routine and the merry-go-round of swearing off booze, then going right back to it. I wasn't living any longer, I was existing. Barely.
I remember once hiding in my closet after a particularly bad bender, wracked with fear. The ring of the phone terrifying me.
I needed help to quit. In AA I found people just like me and they were sober. I found them here. It took many fits and starts, but with help I was able to stop drinking.
You can do it, too. You have to want it, and be willing to go to any length to get it.
It's been four years nine months since alcohol crossed my lips for this drunk.
Thank you for your post. It'll help keep me sober today. I wish the same for you. It can be done. I wish you the best.
saoutchik
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London
Posts: 16,187
Some good advice here JZ
You know how hard the first few weeks are but at least you know that you CAN do them
What do you think made you pick up again after 6 months?
I hope you find it in yourself to stop again
You know how hard the first few weeks are but at least you know that you CAN do them
What do you think made you pick up again after 6 months?
I hope you find it in yourself to stop again
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,536
Joe, I know what you mean. I went on for almost 30 years that way! It was ridiculous what I put myself through, always thinking alcohol was helping me cope. It did nothing but cause anxiety & misery in the end. You don't need it. Please keep posting & reading - you can do it this time.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,760
When I started drinking again I broke 20 yrs of sobriety. 
But as hard as it was to get sober again, I did it and am coming up on six years this winter. If I can do it, so can you!
But as hard as it was to get sober again, I did it and am coming up on six years this winter. If I can do it, so can you!
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