goddamn this is addicting life
 

i failed sr i failed. i had a good time again and the life is addicting. i make friends quick. damn, damn, damn!!! ibwish i never sipped it after 100 days. dont make my mistake. if you are out stay out!

i swear i was born a rockstar in another life. hahaha i party like one hahahaha even when it comes to this addiction hahahahaha

chillen in shower and debating going to the local bars and doing what i do best!! also thinking of just sitting here wasting water so i dont get more addicted to the life

I think you need to go to bed after your shower.

Even a rockstar can change their life GoesWithTheFlow.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ock-stars.html

I was a gigging musician. I used to blame 'the life' too.

The fact was I kept making bad choices. I knew they were bad choices but I kept making them because I was deathly scared of what my life would be like sober.


My sober life is awesome Goes - totally different to the life I used to lead, sure, but a million times better...

don't take 20 years to decide which life is better for you like I did.

You already know, Goes - you just need to find the courage to go for it.

(put me down as a vote for bed too - when you're in a hole, stop digging, man)

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music ever do you guys in? QOTSA, Alice in Chains< Them Crooked Vultures do me in. They take me to that level; jesus i cant eve listen to music without that urge.

I honestly find I enjoy music (both listening and playing) way more now.
I'm not being a goody two shoes - I just missed so much of what was going on, getting drunk or high.

Do yourself a favour and stay in, Goes.

You won't regret it tomorrow....but odds are you'll regret going out again.

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suki and Dee, i will stay in. I definte respect you Dee. You know whats up. i just gona ko in shower.

probably regret all of this anyway... hey Dee checkout that song Nutshell from Alice in Chains . Good stuff.

yeah AliceinChains was big when I was gigging around the first time. Nutshell is a great song.

Layne Staley was my age.

He should still be here - and maybe he would be had he made better choices or reached out for help a little more?

who knows.

Glad you're staying in :)

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I like so many different types of music. Maybe change up what you listen to could help.

along witn cobain,bonham, mike starr,entwistle, jimi,janis,and jim.....countless others.

goes, im honestly thinkin ya didnt have as much fun as ya perceive or ya wouldnt be here.
when ya get up tomorrow you will have the choice to do whatever you have to do to get,and stay sober.
i hope you decide to do whatever is necessary.

Im here because i know i messed up. I know i will feel regret but i cant give up. I have to keep trying!

Never give up Goes! I lived a rockstar life as far as partying and drinking goes too. 21 years of no memories, wasted time that I won't get back, dead dreams, too many close calls that I can't count... not worth the pain. You never know when you will run out of tomorrows.

Get yourself straight again. You deserve it and deep down know you will enjoy the hell out of life when everything is more clear without the destruction and confusion of alcohol.

You had 100 days. That's great and you know how to get it back. Time to go to work. We are here when ever you need.

Stop listening to the music that reminds you of getting drunk or saying F it for a little while , like after a one or two weeks sober. Doesn't mean , don't ever listen to it again. I loved listening to my music buzzed it was fun I aint gonna lie. Tupac, Biggie, etc all made me want to pour out a lil liquor. Im on day 6 its hard as hell but im going to give it 30 or 60 days as a first goal. See how it is to listen to my old school music then when im clean and sober. Its fun at the time but afterwards it just rocks ur body . Not worth it. Keep your head up .

Dru -

The regret has set in.. Back to day 0.

Sorry about this thread; it is a waste of space.

Never a waste of space. Just keep trying!!

Like a baby I'm tired of crawling!!!v( to the bathroom, the bed the car, etc..)
I'm ready to walk!!

For all I know Goes I might slip. Day 04 again.

I hope my relapse doesn't steer you the wrong way. Day 4 is better than day 0.

Nope I live with an alcoholic. If that don't tempt me nothing will. I know you can do it to. You just have to decide.