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Thank you for sharing Aellyce. Not sure what to say other than that I am glad you are physically OK and have your husband there too to be with you in a what is certainly a sad time. Please know we are all keeping you and yours in our thoughts and prayers.
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Oh honey, I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you and your husband. It is good to hear that you will be able to try again and surgery to correct your ability to have children is minor. My thoughts and well wishes are with you both.
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Thank you so very much, friends. This has definitely been a kind of shock I have never experienced before and could not imagine how it would feel at all. I won't even try to describe it right now.
As for the future, having that surgery, trying again, etc... I don't know, I am a bit too old for having second chances in this and feel it was already an unexpected gift and chance in my life... But as Dee said, it's not a decision we need to make today. This song was in my mind all day, on and off:
On the upside, if there is one at all, I have not had a single thought of wanting to drink today. I'll have to battle the shameful feelings I'm having now despite all reason and knowing it's not my fault and most likely could not have been prevented... but I don't feel like escaping and I guess that is a good thing.
Thanks so much for the love and support, again
As for the future, having that surgery, trying again, etc... I don't know, I am a bit too old for having second chances in this and feel it was already an unexpected gift and chance in my life... But as Dee said, it's not a decision we need to make today. This song was in my mind all day, on and off:
On the upside, if there is one at all, I have not had a single thought of wanting to drink today. I'll have to battle the shameful feelings I'm having now despite all reason and knowing it's not my fault and most likely could not have been prevented... but I don't feel like escaping and I guess that is a good thing.
Thanks so much for the love and support, again
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Originally Posted by Aellyce 
. I'll have to battle the shameful feelings I'm having now despite all reason and knowing it's not my fault and most likely could not have been prevented:
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Thanks a lot again, everyone.
Well, I was really out of it for a couple days in every sense but am "happy" to report that it seems I don't have any physical complication from the miscarriage (so far, but apparently I've passed the time when really critical issues would most likely show up).
Mentally, of course it's a whole different world... but that's the world I'm more knowledgeable, competent, and comfortable in also. Yes rationally and consciously I am very aware that blaming myself for all this could never lead anywhere good, and that any such (shameful, guilty, etc) feelings are to be met and dealt with in a way that won't cause extra harm. I'll need to play my own very personal battle with this though, and that it okay with me. Luckily, I now have the most wonderful 3D life support network (something I NEVER had before getting sober in early 2014!!) including peers, professionals, reliable friends, colleagues, and most of all, my husband (who suffers this alongside me and is also a mental health professional like me). So... well, I think I/we will live.
Thanks again, friends
Well, I was really out of it for a couple days in every sense but am "happy" to report that it seems I don't have any physical complication from the miscarriage (so far, but apparently I've passed the time when really critical issues would most likely show up).
Mentally, of course it's a whole different world... but that's the world I'm more knowledgeable, competent, and comfortable in also. Yes rationally and consciously I am very aware that blaming myself for all this could never lead anywhere good, and that any such (shameful, guilty, etc) feelings are to be met and dealt with in a way that won't cause extra harm. I'll need to play my own very personal battle with this though, and that it okay with me. Luckily, I now have the most wonderful 3D life support network (something I NEVER had before getting sober in early 2014!!) including peers, professionals, reliable friends, colleagues, and most of all, my husband (who suffers this alongside me and is also a mental health professional like me). So... well, I think I/we will live.
Thanks again, friends
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