lizzyborden2011

I did so well. my partner was off with me and I felt like I could rule the world... I had 6 days.. 6 DAYS!. . We went out of town for vacation and ...It was all you can eat and drink wine and I felt like I needed to either explain or drink. After that, it was just, well you might as well drink...

I am so tired of wanting to drink... I need to figure out how to remove people from my life or I am F***ed

FreeOwl

you're not a failure.... you're a learner.

good job on 6 days.

get out a piece of paper and start writing... here's what you put at the top of the page;

"What I have learned from this relapse"

Go.

lizzyborden2011

I really was doing well. We worked around the house and did some projects that needed completion.

But I did not say no to the wine and so i felt like i died...

least

'Failing' doesn't make you 'a failure'. You've just found out what doesn't work. Shore up your plan and start again.

lizzyborden2011

Do you know me?
I was the one that stopped by after work and bought a fifth of Absolut
Do you know me?
I was the one that had a couple of shots and thought everything was a joke.
Do you know me?
Do you know me?

Soberwolf

Yes Lizzy your my friend I believe here is some links its ok Rome wasn't built in a day it took time

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html

Frank14

So, it sounds like you haven't told your partner you have a drinking problem?
I think the only time you truly fail is when you stop trying...

Soberwolf

Welcome to SR Frank nice to meet you

wpainterw

It's better to explain than to drink. If you drink you're going to have to explain eventually. Perhaps the only people you might consider "removing from your life" are those who, if you explain, do not understand. A true friend understands if you admit you are ill (and alcoholism is an illness, not a sin) and helps and supports you in recovering from that illness. And it's better to avoid places which put you at risk, like "all you want to eat and drink". And you're not a failure. You're learning to recover. It's not something you learn over night. Sobriety is a journey and sometimes there are bumps in the road. Let us help you over those bumps. We are here 24/7. We know you can do it. Every good wish.

W.

Anna

Lizzie, I could have never gotten through an all you can eat/drink vacation with 6 days of sobriety either. You've learned what works and what doesn't, so now you can make a plan that will keep you on track.

teatreeoil007

Keep trying and never give up. Best to you...

FlyerFan

You're not a failure. You're still alive. keep trying. :-)

Dee74

I don't think you're a failure either Lizzie.

I went back to drinking a lot of times too - I seriously underestimated how much my life revolved around alcohol.

You don't need to tell anyone else if you don't want to, but you do need to be prepared for situations where booze will be on offer and it's your responsibility to say no.

are you working to some kind of a plan at all?

D

lizzyborden2011

i fear... but i want... I have got to find my happiness

lizzyborden2011

what kind of plan Dee74?

Dee74

I mean a strategy for staying sober, avoiding pitfalls, finding support etc

This link explains it all pretty clearly Lizzie

https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf

D

lizzyborden2011

Soberwolf

Here's some other useful links to look over aswell Lizzy

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ful-links.html

Carver

Use the fear of relapsing in your recovery. I'm at 80-something days now, and when I get a craving, one of the many thoughts I use to fight it is "I don't want to start from Day 1 again."

Works for me. You're not a failure. We've all relapsed on our journeys.

thomas11

Couldn't agree more. As long as your still breathing and trying, you haven't failed.