Feeling guilty for having to go through all this again.
Well we can get through this with all this support from SR. I'm excited that we will see each other's progress as we go.
Hi frixion... Congrats on day 1.. That's the hardest day out of the way.. try not to dwell on the past, that cannot be changed. I do get the odd fleeting moment of the past & the stupid things I did while drunk but as soon as this happens I remind myself that door is shut behind me & the door is open in front.. it soon passes.. Wishing you well & an even better day 2!!!!
Hi Frixon, I drink too much and become pretty mean to my boyfriend lately i think because i have no self esteem, take it out on him and i dont want to drink anymore but that is all we do. does your bf support your sobriety? i know mine wont. he will never stop drinking, he drinks to pass out on weekends, most of the time. i hate being lonely and i know once i choose to be sober i will be alone.
He has always supported me in being sober, but he continues to drink because he does not have alcoholic tendencies as I do. Last time I started to recover, in my weakest moments he would talk me out of drinking.
I'm sorry to hear that your BF is unable to be supportive of your sobriety as he does have some alcoholic tendencies. Just remember it is always better to be healthy and productive alone than it is to suffer in a unhealthy situation. And even with that you are never truly alone; just as I am trying to build a supportive network - so can you
Congratulations on your new day one, and new sober journey. When will you be going along to AA?
If you enjoy reading, along with The Big Book, I would def recommend reading (or rereading) Living Sober. Also, The 12 Steps and 12 Traditions is, I think, fantastic for getting your head round the different steps. (Available to read online for free). Alcoholics Anonymous : Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions
I also found listening to AA speaker recordings great for keeping me focussed and in 'recovery mode'. There are loads here... 5500+ AA Speaker Tapes - Organized & Mobile-Friendly!
and also on youtube if you search for 'AA speaker' and whatever you're struggling with.
Onwards and upwards, eh x
If you enjoy reading, along with The Big Book, I would def recommend reading (or rereading) Living Sober. Also, The 12 Steps and 12 Traditions is, I think, fantastic for getting your head round the different steps. (Available to read online for free). Alcoholics Anonymous : Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions
I also found listening to AA speaker recordings great for keeping me focussed and in 'recovery mode'. There are loads here... 5500+ AA Speaker Tapes - Organized & Mobile-Friendly!
and also on youtube if you search for 'AA speaker' and whatever you're struggling with.
Onwards and upwards, eh x
Congratulations on your new day one, and new sober journey. When will you be going along to AA?
If you enjoy reading, along with The Big Book, I would def recommend reading (or rereading) Living Sober. Also, The 12 Steps and 12 Traditions is, I think, fantastic for getting your head round the different steps. (Available to read online for free). Alcoholics Anonymous : Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions
I also found listening to AA speaker recordings great for keeping me focussed and in 'recovery mode'. There are loads here... 5500+ AA Speaker Tapes - Organized & Mobile-Friendly!
and also on youtube if you search for 'AA speaker' and whatever you're struggling with.
Onwards and upwards, eh x
If you enjoy reading, along with The Big Book, I would def recommend reading (or rereading) Living Sober. Also, The 12 Steps and 12 Traditions is, I think, fantastic for getting your head round the different steps. (Available to read online for free). Alcoholics Anonymous : Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions
I also found listening to AA speaker recordings great for keeping me focussed and in 'recovery mode'. There are loads here... 5500+ AA Speaker Tapes - Organized & Mobile-Friendly!
and also on youtube if you search for 'AA speaker' and whatever you're struggling with.
Onwards and upwards, eh x
For some reason I'm mean to my boyfriends when I drink too; never to my family and friends though, I've never figure out why
Well I guess actually now that I am saying that out loud (or in writing lol)... It clearly signifies a lack of self worth on my part. I don't know how to like myself, let alone think I am good enough for him.. whom I love.
I guess I have some thinking to do, and I am quite grateful that you had such a thought provoking response for me
Hi Frixon, I drink too much and become pretty mean to my boyfriend lately i think because i have no self esteem, take it out on him and i dont want to drink anymore but that is all we do. does your bf support your sobriety? i know mine wont. he will never stop drinking, he drinks to pass out on weekends, most of the time. i hate being lonely and i know once i choose to be sober i will be alone.
There's a difference between being alone and being lonely. Sorry to be so blunt, your comment just resonated with me because I've been there my whole life.
You have to realize that no one will love you if you don't love yourself. It's just human nature. People are drawn to confidence (which comes from liking oneself). Before the advent of modern infrastructure and civilization, confidence was the difference between survival and death.
There's a difference between being alone and being lonely. Sorry to be so blunt, your comment just resonated with me because I've been there my whole life.
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