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Old 09-07-2015, 08:28 AM
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I've taken a few trips to the ER as a result of my drinking. Injuries, alcoholic hepatitis, and a medical detox. I was alone for each one. The emptiness I felt inside as I lay awake at 4am in a hospital cot was soul-crushing.

A lot of my drinking was to combat the loneliness I felt, yet it was my drinking which was driving everyone away. I see a therapist and attend AA meetings so I don't feel so alone. I use this site at all other times. Keep fighting and don't give up!
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:07 PM
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Just another day of drinking... Some control I guess but still in the sane cycle
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:09 PM
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Can't eat, cannot sleep anymore. No one knows but the fight and the guilt is killing me
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:10 PM
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Can you maybe pour the rest away Charlie, get some water and try and rest.
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:13 PM
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It's gone, I would have to get more before it's too late
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:26 PM
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Well it's still early tonight, what just as couple more
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:39 PM
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you know what we're all going to say
Why not try to eat something and stop while you're ahead?
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Old 09-07-2015, 02:47 PM
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I'm staying home, tried food, not an option. Just gotta suck it up
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Old 09-08-2015, 10:56 AM
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You doing better today?
I find that I HAVE to keep busy. I like to cook, so preparing an elaborate meal is always good for me.
Do you have pets? Take them for a walk? Or go on a hike?
Why did you end up in the ER? Is it bc of drinking and that it makes you sick?
Reading a book, watching a movie that you want to see, going outside, going for a bike ride, going to the mall/shopping... those are all things that could keep you busy.
And sure people might be upset that you relapsed and it might break their heart, but I think it would be good for you to get it off your chest. Might help you cope a little better, and they might even help. Who are you afraid to tell?
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Old 09-08-2015, 11:12 AM
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Close your eyes. Take a deep breath. On the exhale say to yourself, 'this will pass. It's only a feeling '.

Then locate the feeling - it will be in your solar plexus around the naval.

The cravings will come in waves tonight. Let them come and go. Each wave will pass. Then a bit later another one will come. Again, exhale and say 'this will pass'.

Let yourself glimpse a little bit of 'tomorrow-you' when you wake up feeling proud that you got through last night.
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Old 09-08-2015, 12:49 PM
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Hello Charliee,
I hope you're doing a little better today.
I completely understand the craving to just numb out, to escape all the thoughts in your head. For me, loneliness, and being alone are huge triggers.
You're battling a huge beast, surely being honest with your family is the way to go? You shouldn't have to do this alone.
Best wishes to you.
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Old 09-08-2015, 03:14 PM
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Thinking of you Charliee, hope you can get some food in you and decent sleep. You will feel better, but you already know that, right?
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