Tried to post earlier and couldn't AV ambush
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Tried to post earlier and couldn't AV ambush
Hello all:
I had an AV ambush but now it has passed. I feel better and even if I wanted to I can't leave my house. I also tried to post a response but it didn't work so I'm posting now to be accountable and put it out there AND to keep a trail for me.
I have been having issues as far as having to hear things that upset me at work. I have decided to just distance myself. Then today my hubby left for a couple of days because of his work. My AV tried to convince me to get some booze for after I put my daughter to sleep. These thoughts, Arghhh!! I know that this is going to be forever, I accept that...
I'm not going to drink and I quickly put it down, but just having that thought pop up is annoying. I told a friend that, one that doesn't consider me an alcoholic but supports my desicion, and she acted a little weirded out. I really can't vent to anyone about this other than here. Eventhough I appreciate her listening and always supporting me.
So that was it. I made it through. The stupid part is that my AV goes "nobody will know". I will just keep remembering what someone told me here at my beginning: "YOU will know and that the only person that matters"...
My hubby will be gone until the weekend but I will not drink. I don't drink anymore because I used to...
Have a good night or a good day, depending on where you are
I had an AV ambush but now it has passed. I feel better and even if I wanted to I can't leave my house. I also tried to post a response but it didn't work so I'm posting now to be accountable and put it out there AND to keep a trail for me.
I have been having issues as far as having to hear things that upset me at work. I have decided to just distance myself. Then today my hubby left for a couple of days because of his work. My AV tried to convince me to get some booze for after I put my daughter to sleep. These thoughts, Arghhh!! I know that this is going to be forever, I accept that...
I'm not going to drink and I quickly put it down, but just having that thought pop up is annoying. I told a friend that, one that doesn't consider me an alcoholic but supports my desicion, and she acted a little weirded out. I really can't vent to anyone about this other than here. Eventhough I appreciate her listening and always supporting me.
So that was it. I made it through. The stupid part is that my AV goes "nobody will know". I will just keep remembering what someone told me here at my beginning: "YOU will know and that the only person that matters"...
My hubby will be gone until the weekend but I will not drink. I don't drink anymore because I used to...
Have a good night or a good day, depending on where you are
I could see peace instead of this
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Good that you got past that!
Same thing happened to me just a while ago. Intense craving, enough to make me cry, but I went and did something else and it passed.
Now I'm okay and treating myself to a bowl of ice cream.
We will both be relieved in the morning.
Same thing happened to me just a while ago. Intense craving, enough to make me cry, but I went and did something else and it passed.
Now I'm okay and treating myself to a bowl of ice cream.
We will both be relieved in the morning.
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Originally Posted by Joanne B 
We will both be relieved in the morning.
The other day we were talking about beer and my daughter mentioned that I don't drink beer. I'm glad that she is growing up with this example and I will for sure be honest with her about all the reasons why. Not yet because she's so young, but eventually...
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Nowisthetime, so glad you pushed through and I'm sure you are too! Tomorrow when you are fresh and clear getting your daughter off to school you will appreciate it even more
I totally get the "no one will know" argument. I drink mostly at home , alone, hiding it in my bedroom from my kids. Yuck. It makes it so easy to start and stop because no one sees me drink and I also don't feel like any of my friends or family will understand so I don't talk about it.
Anyway, you are so right... YOU will know. And if you are like me you will hate yourself for it and feel awful mentally and physically while trying desperately to hide it from the world .
Not worth it.
Good for you
I totally get the "no one will know" argument. I drink mostly at home , alone, hiding it in my bedroom from my kids. Yuck. It makes it so easy to start and stop because no one sees me drink and I also don't feel like any of my friends or family will understand so I don't talk about it.
Anyway, you are so right... YOU will know. And if you are like me you will hate yourself for it and feel awful mentally and physically while trying desperately to hide it from the world .
Not worth it.
Good for you
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Originally Posted by forabetterlife
Nowisthetime, so glad you pushed through and I'm sure you are too! Tomorrow when you are fresh and clear getting your daughter off to school you will appreciate it even more
I totally get the "no one will know" argument. I drink mostly at home , alone, hiding it in my bedroom from my kids. Yuck. It makes it so easy to start and stop because no one sees me drink and I also don't feel like any of my friends or family will understand so I don't talk about it.
Anyway, you are so right... YOU will know. And if you are like me you will hate yourself for it and feel awful mentally and physically while trying desperately to hide it from the world .
Not worth it.
Good for you
I totally get the "no one will know" argument. I drink mostly at home , alone, hiding it in my bedroom from my kids. Yuck. It makes it so easy to start and stop because no one sees me drink and I also don't feel like any of my friends or family will understand so I don't talk about it.
Anyway, you are so right... YOU will know. And if you are like me you will hate yourself for it and feel awful mentally and physically while trying desperately to hide it from the world .
Not worth it.
Good for you
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