I drank and don't want this to define me
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Midwest
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Alcohol will do that to you. It's a depressant. Almost every mess in my life that I've regretted has been due to alcohol consumption. Can't think of too many sober messes I regret.
Is there outpatient follow up at the treatment center where you did rehab? I think it's time to call them for options.
Is there outpatient follow up at the treatment center where you did rehab? I think it's time to call them for options.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Gulf Coast, USA
Posts: 2,229
Notgonna, your slip won't define you but if you keep drinking then you are defining yourself with every sip you take.
You know deep down that drinking and numbing the pain isn't the solution. I'm no psychologist, but I think you've got to figure out why you are sick of life. I know this though, alcohol isn't going to make you any less sick of life, it will bring you down further.
Your kids need you, you need you... You had 53 days which is awesome. You can get them back. Just tweak your plan on how you handle those stressful situations.
Believe in yourself. We are here for you.
You know deep down that drinking and numbing the pain isn't the solution. I'm no psychologist, but I think you've got to figure out why you are sick of life. I know this though, alcohol isn't going to make you any less sick of life, it will bring you down further.
Your kids need you, you need you... You had 53 days which is awesome. You can get them back. Just tweak your plan on how you handle those stressful situations.
Believe in yourself. We are here for you.
One Day At A Time
Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Midwest, USA
Posts: 2,054
Is there outpatient follow up at the treatment center where you did rehab? I think it's time to call them for options.
I completely agree with Ruby. There is a lot of wise advice from all of the posters.
We all want to see you succeed. Your children, more than anyone, want you to be well.
Please stop drinking, get some sleep, and make that phone call.
I completely agree with Ruby. There is a lot of wise advice from all of the posters.
We all want to see you succeed. Your children, more than anyone, want you to be well.
Please stop drinking, get some sleep, and make that phone call.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Posts: 507
I just read your previous thread and was shocked at just how bad things got after your last drinking binge.
You said you were going to put a photo of all the machines you were hooked up to onto your phone, so you'd have a constant reminder. Is that still there? Do you still have the 60 pages of medical notes, the EKG results etc, to look at and remind yourself how bad things were back in July?
You know better than any of us, from personal experience, how badly this will end if you don't pour out what's left of your alcohol and start your sober journey again. And I'm sure the conscious you, the sober you, doesn't want to end up hooked up to all those machines again, even if your AV doesn't care.
I really hope you've been sleeping off your binge, and you're ready to start day 1 again. And the very first thing you need to do is find an alternative way to deal with the very real, and very serious issues your addictive voice has been taking advantage of to get you drinking again, and keep you drinking. I don't know what those are, or what caused them, but dealing with them the way you've been doing is clearly self-destructive, making them worse, not better, and not an option. Some kind of therapy aimed specifically at those underlying issues really does seem like a top priority right now.
You said you were going to put a photo of all the machines you were hooked up to onto your phone, so you'd have a constant reminder. Is that still there? Do you still have the 60 pages of medical notes, the EKG results etc, to look at and remind yourself how bad things were back in July?
You know better than any of us, from personal experience, how badly this will end if you don't pour out what's left of your alcohol and start your sober journey again. And I'm sure the conscious you, the sober you, doesn't want to end up hooked up to all those machines again, even if your AV doesn't care.
I really hope you've been sleeping off your binge, and you're ready to start day 1 again. And the very first thing you need to do is find an alternative way to deal with the very real, and very serious issues your addictive voice has been taking advantage of to get you drinking again, and keep you drinking. I don't know what those are, or what caused them, but dealing with them the way you've been doing is clearly self-destructive, making them worse, not better, and not an option. Some kind of therapy aimed specifically at those underlying issues really does seem like a top priority right now.
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: Milwaukee, WI
Posts: 880
THOSE ARE NOT 53 days down the drain! 53 days of sobriety is awesome! THOSE ARE GOOD DAYS! You'll do what it takes. You have the power to do whatever you need to do and you will!
Hang in there! We're all supportive even if your hubby is not.
Hang in there! We're all supportive even if your hubby is not.
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