MIRecovery

I have found that few in my life know what it is like to have profound sadness 24X7. I look OK and most days act OK. I can smile and carry on a conversation. I care for others and do a good job at work but I'm not OK not even sort of OK.

Are things better than they were? Thank God they are but there is a hole in my soul where my daughter used to be.

Staying sober and trudging the road to happy destiny I guess is as good as it gets.

One thing I have learned is a lot more tolerance of people because I simply have not walked in their shoes

Soberwolf

Mags1

MIR, I feel your sadness, it passed through me, it can't help but not. To lose your daughter so young.....

On the outside nobody knows the feelings you have inside, I'm pleased you are here, to share with us. Most of us can't comprehend but have empathy and love.

Know you are not alone, reach out, we will always be here for you.

ccam1973

I'm sorry MIRecovery. I can't find the right words to post back to you right now... just know you have plenty of people here that care about you. I'm one of them.

Be well today and well done on staying sober.

Bailey3

Take care of yourself. That's the important thing right now.

TroyW

Really sorry to hear that MIR. I couldn't imagine what it's like to lose a child.

Hang in there.

2ndhandrose

(((MIRecovery))) My dear friend lost her young son to illness many years ago and I have watched her live her life with this underlying sadness.

Even so I still cannot fathom the depth of your pain. I am so sorry. I wish there were words for comfort but sometimes there just aren't.

Anna

And, that's a great lesson to learn MIR.

I hope that your sadness eases a little bit as time goes by.

Tooshabby

(((((darling angel))))) What is there to be said? I know after I lost my father - and this, I know, in no way compares to the loss of child - I felt he was 'gone', and I couldn't 'feel' him. But now, several years later, I feel closer to him than I ever did. He is with me any time I 'tune in', and in a deeply spiritual way that just wasn't possible when he was here on earth. I know that doesn't take away the pain of not being able to see her, talk to her, and hold her. But I would suggest, with the greatest humility and respect one can have for anyone who has lost a child, that you sit, close your eyes and tune in. You may be overwhelmed by the response. Truly, I believe this xxx

Quirky

I am so sorry you are feeling so sad MIR.
I can totally relate, as I lost my Son.
Have you tried finding a grief support group? Maybe that would help.
They say that time heals a lot of things, and I pray that the deep void that you feel is one of them. My heart goes out to you...
Gail

FreeOwl

MI.... I'm proud of you for your sobriety and for being as OK as you are.

I can imagine the depth of that hole, as a father.... Losing my daughter... And I am aware that even the deepest depths of my imagination cannot begin to touch the true depths of that aching grief.

A loss like that will never go away, but I hope one day you will find some sort of peace.

Until then and along the way, I hope you'll find at least moments of being OK, and find those moments come more frequently and last longer as time passes.

Love and comfort be with you.

Carver

I lost my baby girl three years ago - I know how you feel. There's nothing in this world more painful.

Just know that we're all here for you. There will always be a hole, but having friends and family will ease the pain a bit x

Holds1325

My condolences

Bird615

I know that no one can relieve your pain. My mother went through the same thing, and although she seemed to come out of the most intense part of her grief, I don't think she ever completely recovered from it. Her faith was all that sustained her.
I hope it helps just a little to know that so many here care and I pray for peace and comfort for you.

MIRecovery

Sometimes I feel like such a Wendy whiner. Poor me. This stuff just rolls over me and I don't have the tools to deal with it. Maybe there aren't tools.

I do know keeping it bottled up makes me a step closer to a drink.

Thanks for the kind words and putting up with me

Lola23

MIR - I'm so sorry. There is nothing to "put up with", you're not a "whiner". This is what SR is here for, and I for one am inspired by your post, that you're getting through this sober. ((((HUGS))) over the internet to you.

Dharma33

((((((MIR))))))

You add so much wisdom to SR, and I am glad you are here.

Staying sober through your loss is an amazing testimony.

ItWillBeWorthIt

Sending condolences, hugs and support MIR.

Soberwolf

Your not whining Mir you help me so much with your posts & I hope you continue too it's not whining its love

Carver

Nope, not whining.