Update - still going
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Update - still going
Hola:
I really want to post but didn't know what to say...
I'm still going on my sobriety journey and it feels great. Last week I fell and hit my head really bad. I had to go to the ER. It's interesting, all the times I fell drunk I never ended up in ER, oh well. It was very scary and I was lucky. I could have died. This accident really showed me that things can happen in a sec. So please live in the moment because things can change in a second.
I was offered Vicodin at the hospital but I told the doctor that I was not going to take them so I didn't get the prescription. I have never done pills so why start now? Specially since I have a very high pain tolerance and Tylenol is ok with me. The blood from the goose egg is starting to travel down and I have a horrible black eye. I am mortified but I have to deal with it until it goes away.
AV hasn't been quiet. I have caught myself thinking about having a couple of drinks in some vacations that I have coming up. I am starting to really rev up my daily work and sober muscles. That's why I'm posting. It's going to be hard but I have to pull through! I'm going to use all the tools that I have learned here. One vacay is on land so I'll have access to SR, the other is an international cruise so I don't know if I'll be able to access... I really hope so. For some reason coming here makes me feel more accountable since people in my real life don't get that I can't drink. I have 1yr and 5 months since I started my sober journey and I am as determined as ever.
Sober life is really amazing. For me there's nothing better than waking up without a hangover and anxiety. After my hit I have been in pain and it reminded me of being hungover. YUCK!
So, that's that friends, just posting to be connected. I really appreciate having your "ears" to vent to. I don't have anyone in real life. I feel like SR has my back and it makes me feel strong. I'm not alone...
I really want to post but didn't know what to say...
I'm still going on my sobriety journey and it feels great. Last week I fell and hit my head really bad. I had to go to the ER. It's interesting, all the times I fell drunk I never ended up in ER, oh well. It was very scary and I was lucky. I could have died. This accident really showed me that things can happen in a sec. So please live in the moment because things can change in a second.
I was offered Vicodin at the hospital but I told the doctor that I was not going to take them so I didn't get the prescription. I have never done pills so why start now? Specially since I have a very high pain tolerance and Tylenol is ok with me. The blood from the goose egg is starting to travel down and I have a horrible black eye. I am mortified but I have to deal with it until it goes away.
AV hasn't been quiet. I have caught myself thinking about having a couple of drinks in some vacations that I have coming up. I am starting to really rev up my daily work and sober muscles. That's why I'm posting. It's going to be hard but I have to pull through! I'm going to use all the tools that I have learned here. One vacay is on land so I'll have access to SR, the other is an international cruise so I don't know if I'll be able to access... I really hope so. For some reason coming here makes me feel more accountable since people in my real life don't get that I can't drink. I have 1yr and 5 months since I started my sober journey and I am as determined as ever.
Sober life is really amazing. For me there's nothing better than waking up without a hangover and anxiety. After my hit I have been in pain and it reminded me of being hungover. YUCK!
So, that's that friends, just posting to be connected. I really appreciate having your "ears" to vent to. I don't have anyone in real life. I feel like SR has my back and it makes me feel strong. I'm not alone...
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Congrats on over 1 year sober! In case you can't get on SR (or do it anyway), you might want to write yourself a list of all the things that are better now you are sober and another list of the negative things about drinking. On cruises you'll often see a discreet sign something like this: "Bill W's friends meet here on ... at ..." if you would consider an AA meeting.
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Thanks guys and thanks for the tip Saskia, I'll keep my eye open for that. My accident was at home, I was getting ready for work and BAM!
The older I get the more I realize that all the clichés are so true. I am focused of living every minute now. The thought of my daughter and husband, and famy having to bury me really scared me.
Right now I'm loving life. It's precious!
The older I get the more I realize that all the clichés are so true. I am focused of living every minute now. The thought of my daughter and husband, and famy having to bury me really scared me.
Right now I'm loving life. It's precious!
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Thanks Anna:
I looked like Cuasimodo at first. It's starting to go down but the bruise is horrible. It almost looks like makeup because the blood drained to my eye socket. Maybe I'll just put really heavy purple, black and blue makeup and I'll be good to go.
I looked like Cuasimodo at first. It's starting to go down but the bruise is horrible. It almost looks like makeup because the blood drained to my eye socket. Maybe I'll just put really heavy purple, black and blue makeup and I'll be good to go.
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Reading your post made me smile.
Its awesome to hear or read how those
in recovery are learning how to remain
sober or clean just by using the knowledge
of their addiction and using affective tools
in all areas of their life or whatever life
throws at them.
Im glad your accident wasnt as bad as it
could have been and that you have recovered
and healed from it.
I smiled when you wrote about how
the doctors offered you a strong medicine
for your pain and that you refused it. That
you know what works for you and not to
be given something so strong and addicting.
I had to learn in recovery that we use
our recovery program to help us learn
to remain sober or clean with and effective
program of steps and principles set down
for us to in corperate in all our affairs.
Then it is absolutely okay to seek medical
attention from our doctors using our knowledge
of addiction to communicate honesty with
them so we can heal properly.
It is important for me to let my doctors
know that im in recovery for addiction
and that I do not want anything narcotic
or habit forming. Unless I make that statement
known to my physician then they will
prescribe what they want. It is absolutely
important for me to speak up or else they
will never know.
For me, I been on quite a few vacations,
trips since I entered recovery 25 yrs ago.
Back in 1990 I didn't have a computer to
stay connected to AA or SR like I have
today.
All I had was my Big Book, 12 & 12 Step Book,
my 24 Hour Prayer Book, my picture of Jesus
to take with me even tho He lives within my
heart, mind and soul, but having a picture of
Him has always been soothing for me emotionally
and spiritually.
I hung on to what was taught to me in my
28 day rehab stay and continued to practice
those principles and steps in all areas of my
life.
Those first vacations were with my little
family and even tho it was trying for me,
I tried to make sure the quality of those
vacations would be memorable for my
children.
After my 25 yr marriage ended peacefully,
I remarried, 6 yrs happily today and it is just
my husband and I we ride our Harley to different
places like to Sturgis, Daytona Bike Rallies,
Grand Canyon, and all the states to and from
there.
When thinking of motorcycle rallies one
would have to imagine that there is no way
going to something like that and remain sober.
Well, you can as we and countless others in
recovery have.
We enjoy the ride on the bike and being
outside enjoying the scenery along the
way. We enjoy seeing the many bikers
riding up and down the hills or roads. So
many shapes, sizes, styles, people, its just
an awesome sight to see and experience.
Sure there is alcohol available everywhere
no matter where we or you go on ur destination.
What helps us remain sober is to avoid those
scenes, those places where crowds gather
and drinking is available.
I still carry my 24 hr prayer book and picture
with me all the time and today I bring my
laptop to stay connected to SR to have you
guys with me to share my journey with.
Id rather vacation sober than anything.
A journey in life worth remembering
and experience.
Its awesome to hear or read how those
in recovery are learning how to remain
sober or clean just by using the knowledge
of their addiction and using affective tools
in all areas of their life or whatever life
throws at them.
Im glad your accident wasnt as bad as it
could have been and that you have recovered
and healed from it.
I smiled when you wrote about how
the doctors offered you a strong medicine
for your pain and that you refused it. That
you know what works for you and not to
be given something so strong and addicting.
I had to learn in recovery that we use
our recovery program to help us learn
to remain sober or clean with and effective
program of steps and principles set down
for us to in corperate in all our affairs.
Then it is absolutely okay to seek medical
attention from our doctors using our knowledge
of addiction to communicate honesty with
them so we can heal properly.
It is important for me to let my doctors
know that im in recovery for addiction
and that I do not want anything narcotic
or habit forming. Unless I make that statement
known to my physician then they will
prescribe what they want. It is absolutely
important for me to speak up or else they
will never know.
For me, I been on quite a few vacations,
trips since I entered recovery 25 yrs ago.
Back in 1990 I didn't have a computer to
stay connected to AA or SR like I have
today.
All I had was my Big Book, 12 & 12 Step Book,
my 24 Hour Prayer Book, my picture of Jesus
to take with me even tho He lives within my
heart, mind and soul, but having a picture of
Him has always been soothing for me emotionally
and spiritually.
I hung on to what was taught to me in my
28 day rehab stay and continued to practice
those principles and steps in all areas of my
life.
Those first vacations were with my little
family and even tho it was trying for me,
I tried to make sure the quality of those
vacations would be memorable for my
children.
After my 25 yr marriage ended peacefully,
I remarried, 6 yrs happily today and it is just
my husband and I we ride our Harley to different
places like to Sturgis, Daytona Bike Rallies,
Grand Canyon, and all the states to and from
there.
When thinking of motorcycle rallies one
would have to imagine that there is no way
going to something like that and remain sober.
Well, you can as we and countless others in
recovery have.
We enjoy the ride on the bike and being
outside enjoying the scenery along the
way. We enjoy seeing the many bikers
riding up and down the hills or roads. So
many shapes, sizes, styles, people, its just
an awesome sight to see and experience.
Sure there is alcohol available everywhere
no matter where we or you go on ur destination.
What helps us remain sober is to avoid those
scenes, those places where crowds gather
and drinking is available.
I still carry my 24 hr prayer book and picture
with me all the time and today I bring my
laptop to stay connected to SR to have you
guys with me to share my journey with.
Id rather vacation sober than anything.
A journey in life worth remembering
and experience.
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Aasharon90: you are so right that it is a learning process and that's what I'm trying to do. I understand that I have to do the work to make it easier for me. Just not drinking isn't all if I want it to work in the long run. That's why it has been a blessing for me to find this place. Here I have been able to learn in a private way and to connect to others who understand me. I am starting to understand recovery and it is paying off. I used to love drinking but now I am over it because of everything I have learned about it and it is so liberating to have that desire off my shoulders. Cravings do come but I'm ready to handle them.
I'm still excited about sobriety and I'm riding this wave.
I'm still excited about sobriety and I'm riding this wave.
Hope you heal fast ! Congrats on 1 year & 5 months * Wonderful work*
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