whoah! spirtiual enlightenment?
 

Ive just come back from AA and the most weirdest thing happened tonight..... I cant explain it but it feels like I have had some sort of awakening, its like the lightbulb has suddenly switched on ..... I finally understand alcoholism and what happened to me etc.... it feels weird but good. I feel like im on another planet right now, mixed with relief and enlightenment but also mixed with regret and remorse etc... I feel ready for a sponsor and to start working through the steps to help me ground myself and work through all this. Sorry if this sounds all strange.... but is there anyone out there who can understand what im jabbering on about?!?!?!

I felt different after reading the Big Book. Suddenly this time, quitting drinking is easy, as if I'm being helped somehow. Total atheist here, so this is weird.

I'm trying not to be complacent though. I still need to work at staying sober :)

Yes totally agree i said that tonight I must not become complacent I know Ive a lot of work to do but it feels right you know?

I had a moment like that. I called it surrender. I had always said I was an alkie but at that point I finally accepted it. I had been struggling with whether I wanted to stay in the program and do the steps. Struggling with the whole higher power thing. The decision to work the steps came at that time as well. It was a huge relief. I would consider it spiritual. It wasn't long after that while working the steps that the obsession was gone. Somewhere from the third to seventh step. Perhaps we experienced the same thing. Best wishes.

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Sounds like an awesome step forward blueberry :)

Hi blueberry, I think I understand. Sometime in my first few weeks, I started to feel like a veil or curtain of fog was being lifted, and I could start see things differently. I felt relief, and remorse, and a desire to get serious about doing the work. I felt so different, I was really surprised by it.

Keep at it ... it gets even better. :)