BlissWithin

Hang in there Aiko, read your older posts, remember why you are doing this, you can do this.

SoberLeigh

Yes, go straight home, Aiko. Have a light meal, a nice warm aromatherapy bath, and try to go to sleep.

You never have to go through this again; remember the goodness of sobriety and drift out to sleep.

Aiko

My head was wispering... Get more..
But I came home straight....
I run out of pills.

My doc left me a mesage is phoning me tomorrow... Is going to give me a good telling off...
and some. @@@@@@@@@ hit my car and escaped... and can not drive out of the city

On top I run out of my real meds... Another day not taking great... is going to get really ###@@@ mad

But that is it NO more!
Sorry about these few days I go bonkers suddenly!!!

Seriously I am going to stay away.... :

Big hug and lots of Love XO

Gilmer

Glad you are off.

SoberLeigh

I am so relieved that you are okay, Aiko, and have re-committed to sobriety.

You are young, smart, talented and beautiful; a wonderful future lies ahead.

BringingBackB

Look after yourself, Aiko

trachemys

You have this, Aiko. Be strong.

Aiko

I can stop..... I do not need it but I do ot again....
I am loosing!!!!!

SoberLeigh

Aiko, please throw away whatever you have left. You are on a risky path.

You are so much more than your addiction; you deserve so much more.

Dig deep; you can do this.

Aiko

Seriously... I lasted 1 day.
I dot comprihend how my head works... Does not make sense but still go and got more pills
I am a @:_##_;@_-@@_ idiot!!!!

First stop the quemist... And stick to medication... No go to a friends house!!!!

When my head decides to do something I go and do it!!! Brainless!!!
Abd I say only 9. Pills more

SoberLeigh

Addiction is baffling; it is hard to comprehend the reasons why; the important is to kick the addiction to the curb. First thing to do is to throw away the pills!!!!

Aiko

No wayyyyy so hard to get... Ilrgal drugs sre easier to get.... i finish this lot and will be it!!
I am not gettong rid of thr ttreasure!!!!!! o

SoberLeigh

I guess that I am confused about what you have in your possession; were these prescribed to you?

Dee74

I'm confused too Aiko - I thought you were finished?
did you get some more?

D

Aiko

jdust woke up

I visited again a friend to get more benzo and smoked pot again ....
I am not taking my prescribed meds (anti depress, anxiety, epileptic pills...)
I am worried I mix too much...
am making a messsssssssssssssss the chemical changes in the head...

totally my fault,
conscience of what I am doing,
I still do it....

totally my fault and conscience of my actions... I still go an do it!!!!!!!!!!!

but no alcohol and no other drugs,,, at all,,,
Just need to pass out, and relax... I rather downys.

it is a sand pit.........
you move and drown deeper....

Seriously one more round and that is it... I stop... keep saying!!!
I got to stop before it gets bigger and end up 24x7 again!

will stop after tomorrow,,,,,,
I got for another round and that is it...

Bellamiaa

Do you have any family? Children? Who can help you?

Aiko

I live om my own... My family not a clue... I hope!
It is my problem and have to handle it.

My dic told me the consecuences of all the mixing.
One more chance they give me...
Start fron.zero the last treatmen.
Empty thereat... To scare me... I hope!

When I repair the car will go...
But I think is a day center treatmen... And ai am not happy at all....
I can see confrontstions.

Too stoned night night

SoberLeigh

Some treatment sounds like a good idea - physically and emotionally - to help you get back on track.

Is your car in the repair/body shop?

Aiko

Someone hit my weell but still broken awaiting...
I am going stop I feel sick seriously.....
I arrive late at work half gone... 1 hour late!!!
Can not continue... I do not feel well physically sick. I deserve it!!!

trachemys

Aiko, go to the emergency room. You need help NOW.