Ugh ugh ugh
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Ugh ugh ugh
Whoops... I talked too soon.
I said I didn't want to drink.
And then, I saw my soon-to-be-ex. Good Lord - do I want to drink Thought about it all the way from where I saw him, back to work. Just that rude way he walks, his dismissive and mean-spirited attitude. I know. I know. That's the way he is. I can't control him. If I could have today, I might have willed him out into traffic. Just kidding. What I would have done before is grovel and plead for him to love and forgive me. What kind of messed up is that?
But I can control me. I'm not going to drink. I have fought too hard to be something better than what I allowed that marriage to turn me into.
So -there. I put it in writing. No way to back out now. And no way am I drinking again.
I said I didn't want to drink.
And then, I saw my soon-to-be-ex. Good Lord - do I want to drink Thought about it all the way from where I saw him, back to work. Just that rude way he walks, his dismissive and mean-spirited attitude. I know. I know. That's the way he is. I can't control him. If I could have today, I might have willed him out into traffic. Just kidding. What I would have done before is grovel and plead for him to love and forgive me. What kind of messed up is that?
But I can control me. I'm not going to drink. I have fought too hard to be something better than what I allowed that marriage to turn me into.
So -there. I put it in writing. No way to back out now. And no way am I drinking again.
Glad you didn't drink AT the problem and came on here instead. I used to drink at the problem. You hurt me so now I'll hurt me by drinking. Messed up, isn't it?
Keep your eyes on the prize of a better life.
Keep your eyes on the prize of a better life.
Way to go! I know how hard that is. I thought my ex was the devil after our breakup. He even got a job at little cafe a block from my house a couple months after. I mean I could look out my kitchen window and see where he worked and would often catch a glance of his stupid head walking by on his way to work. Yuck. It will get easier. These are the kind of tests that build strength. Persevere.
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