Day 11, Wow, this is intense! :(
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Day 13
Having problems posting. I'm not able to start a new thread but oh well.
It's day 13, I had my 2nd decent nights sleep. Vivid but normal dreams. For awhile there, my husband was walking me from nightmares almost every night.
I worked my full week, stress and all and made it thru, although that one day was a little iffy. My friend/co-worker has been coming in to touch bases with me and has given me a few tips. One is to write down 3 things that being me joy everyday. Not a gratitude list but something she learned from a work shop years ago. She says she has been thinking alot about me with ways to help.
She has been a good friend to me during this time.
It's day 13, I had my 2nd decent nights sleep. Vivid but normal dreams. For awhile there, my husband was walking me from nightmares almost every night.
I worked my full week, stress and all and made it thru, although that one day was a little iffy. My friend/co-worker has been coming in to touch bases with me and has given me a few tips. One is to write down 3 things that being me joy everyday. Not a gratitude list but something she learned from a work shop years ago. She says she has been thinking alot about me with ways to help.
She has been a good friend to me during this time.
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The morning of day 14. I never thought i would have 14 days clean off of suboxone this soon.
All in all, it was easier than methadone. Thank goodness!
Last night, sleep was a little hard to come by but i got enough. I realize more and more how badly we abuse our bodies while using and do more, work harder and longer hours because we feel ok but in reality, we're over doing it which causes problems later.
I think that's where some of my pain issues come from. There's a fine line between that thought and my AV saying, "you need stronger pain relief". At least i can recognize the bad thoughts.
It's going to be a normal day with catching up on chores, etc. I'll be checking in!
All in all, it was easier than methadone. Thank goodness!
Last night, sleep was a little hard to come by but i got enough. I realize more and more how badly we abuse our bodies while using and do more, work harder and longer hours because we feel ok but in reality, we're over doing it which causes problems later.
I think that's where some of my pain issues come from. There's a fine line between that thought and my AV saying, "you need stronger pain relief". At least i can recognize the bad thoughts.
It's going to be a normal day with catching up on chores, etc. I'll be checking in!
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Peanut, you're doing so well.
I think suddenly feeling emotions and physical pain is really common with opiate/sub withdrawal, isn't it?
Even in my withdrawal from alcohol I found all kinds of pains I had been numbing. It calmed down for me in about a month.
I think suddenly feeling emotions and physical pain is really common with opiate/sub withdrawal, isn't it?
Even in my withdrawal from alcohol I found all kinds of pains I had been numbing. It calmed down for me in about a month.
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Yes it does. I have to be really careful because when i get upset, i get REALLY upset and instantly want to get rid of the threat. I have to breathe and think before i say, post or do anything.
I have inspirational goose bumps often and i laugh a lot easier. Different but good.
I think alcohol would be a lot more difficult because it's available everywhere. I guess you have to be mentally prepared in a big way.
It's a lazy, muggy simple day.
I'm grateful for this Web site.
I have inspirational goose bumps often and i laugh a lot easier. Different but good.
I think alcohol would be a lot more difficult because it's available everywhere. I guess you have to be mentally prepared in a big way.
It's a lazy, muggy simple day.
I'm grateful for this Web site.
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The end of day 14.
Days off are definitely trouble for me. Not that it was a bad day but i was lost and kind of struggled because of boredom. Before it was take pills, get that buzz and get lost in something totally meaningless like video games or some other nonsense.
Now i have to find other things to fill my time.
I was easy on myself because this week was kind of tough.
I was tired for most of the day but i think the weird weather may have played a part in that.
I also feel as though I'm thinking better and more clearly. A lot of introspection going on here.
Days off are definitely trouble for me. Not that it was a bad day but i was lost and kind of struggled because of boredom. Before it was take pills, get that buzz and get lost in something totally meaningless like video games or some other nonsense.
Now i have to find other things to fill my time.
I was easy on myself because this week was kind of tough.
I was tired for most of the day but i think the weird weather may have played a part in that.
I also feel as though I'm thinking better and more clearly. A lot of introspection going on here.
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End of day 15!
I tried to post from work as i really needed some advice. I couldn't log on and just was too busy.
What a crappie day......
It's my own fault for letting my emotions get the best of me. My husband has been having problems with his boss. It's only her and him and she is seriously the most weird and rudest person I've ever seen.
He had finally had enough and got in her face and they had a huge blow out. But it really upset him and that in turn, upset me.....really bad. I've been listening to his problems with her off and on for over 2 years and it's been frustrating because i can't do anything.
I feel that I'm too new off of pills to handle this.
I know he needs to talk to someone and i really do feel for him but today it was absolutely overwhelming.
Any advice is welcome.
I tried to post from work as i really needed some advice. I couldn't log on and just was too busy.
What a crappie day......
It's my own fault for letting my emotions get the best of me. My husband has been having problems with his boss. It's only her and him and she is seriously the most weird and rudest person I've ever seen.
He had finally had enough and got in her face and they had a huge blow out. But it really upset him and that in turn, upset me.....really bad. I've been listening to his problems with her off and on for over 2 years and it's been frustrating because i can't do anything.
I feel that I'm too new off of pills to handle this.
I know he needs to talk to someone and i really do feel for him but today it was absolutely overwhelming.
Any advice is welcome.
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Hi Peanut!
Since I quit drinking, I have found "The Serenity Prayer" to be very helpful. Keep saying it over and over!
Since I quit drinking, I have found "The Serenity Prayer" to be very helpful. Keep saying it over and over!
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
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Peanut, I had terrible insomnia for a while in the beginning. It made it very hard for me to cope with just about anything. I thought of giving up. But then I started sleeping after a few weeks and everything started seeming better. I started filling those voids also. So hang in there, it will get better.
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Day 16, I'm Doing It!
Almost the end of day 16. It seems like such a short amount of time when I type it but it feels like it's been forever! Lol!
I'm not having any cravings. I had the day off by myself and I got by okay! Did a few things around the house and played with my kitties and chickens.
I'm feeling pretty stable and that's enough for me right now. Trying to break the habit of taking a pill here and a pill there. If I could treat this the same way I did quitting smoking, I'd have no problem. Quitting smoking was very easy for me even after 15 years of it.
All in all, a good day. Things have settled down at my husbands job. They're just ignoring each other at this point.
Hopefully I'll be able to post a new thread soon. Still won't go thru so this is the only way I can post.
I'm not having any cravings. I had the day off by myself and I got by okay! Did a few things around the house and played with my kitties and chickens.
I'm feeling pretty stable and that's enough for me right now. Trying to break the habit of taking a pill here and a pill there. If I could treat this the same way I did quitting smoking, I'd have no problem. Quitting smoking was very easy for me even after 15 years of it.
All in all, a good day. Things have settled down at my husbands job. They're just ignoring each other at this point.
Hopefully I'll be able to post a new thread soon. Still won't go thru so this is the only way I can post.
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