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I am here because I realize I have a problem, I have spent the last week cutting down drastically on opiate consumption, I am trying to "taper" as I have read many here have done. I don't know if I am fooling myself by not just stopping but I do know it will be crushing to try to stop cold turkey. I am driving 2.5 hours to a baby shower tomorrow with my fiancé, I promised I would take her to the state fair on Sunday and I work around 60 hours a week. I am taking way way too many opiates, 20-25 pills a day and have gotten down to around 10 in the last week but I NEED TO STOP. Right now I am here because I am sick and tired of being sick and tired, I want to stop. I am telling myself I will try to taper, I don't know what I am looking for with this post, just feels good to say, I am here, I have a problem and I want to deal with it.
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Thanks JK, I have another question for anyone here that may know. I don't think I can ever believe in "god" or a "higher power" can I still go through NA, I know they will let me in the door and I am sure they will be nice and everything I do think personal support from people that understand is one thing I really need but I just don't think I will change my belief on that front, anyone have any experiences with that?
Welcome, GS! For both AA and NA, a "higher power" can be anything and for many has no religious meaning. Why not try a few meetings? Some groups are better than others so if you don't feel comfortable with the first meeting you attend, then try others.
I have no experience to answer your questions but I'm interested to hear what others have to say. Without a religious background myself, I "listened in" to an online aa meeting for the 1st time tonight. The idea of fellowship appeals to me.
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Thanks Saskia and JK, I am ready to try something, such a brutal cycle, every night I go to bed hating myself so much and swearing I am done and every morning I convince myself I can just "take it easy" or be "in control" I know I can't. I have been doing better, down around 50% this week and hope to keep dropping as quickly as I can but I have so little will power on that front, seems like I am not alone in that here thankfully, time to give it my all, this site makes me feel like I am not the only person that can't help themselves, It's been a long time coming but I am ready to try anything, probably spent 10 hours today reading here and that probably stopped me from using 10 times. Still not clean but working to get there. I love the caring community here but I think face to face connections will help. Yesterday I got a letter from the condo association's (development I live in) lawyers, saying I owe 3k, 500 a month I have not paid in 6 months so I can feed the beast, I can find 15-20k an month for them but can't pay my bills, that's my low point, I will keep logging in here everytime I get the urge and keep trying because I know I can can do this for me and for those I love and I just really really want this.
Welcome, GS,
I don't have any experience with opiates, but I have a LOT of experience with being sick and tired of being sick and tired. That's how I ended up here too.
I hope you'll stick around and let us know how things go as you move towards a better life.
Sending you lots of positive vibes,
Delfin
I don't have any experience with opiates, but I have a LOT of experience with being sick and tired of being sick and tired. That's how I ended up here too.
I hope you'll stick around and let us know how things go as you move towards a better life.
Sending you lots of positive vibes,
Delfin
GS, I won't pretend it's easy to deal with our addictions but it truly is do-able. I think your thoughts about face-to-face support are right on. Also an option: seeing an addictions counselor.
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Im trying to quit opiates myself, as soon as the withdrawals kick in though I crumble, tapering holds of the sickness, but its just too temting having the pills around. I plan on quitting cold turkey soon but its hard with work and stuff.
Does anyone know about your addiction? When I quit years ago everyone knew about it, this time its a secret addiction, so I get no help and no one to talk to thats why I beleieve it's soooo hard. Good luck, but im not sure if tapering is the best route. Keep posting how you get on.
Does anyone know about your addiction? When I quit years ago everyone knew about it, this time its a secret addiction, so I get no help and no one to talk to thats why I beleieve it's soooo hard. Good luck, but im not sure if tapering is the best route. Keep posting how you get on.
Heya GS,
I understand your problem with the whole religion thing I experienced the same thing at first.
Many of us did.
Just focus on gettting sober. Physically free of drugs.
Then.
Work the steps with a sponsor and an open mind.
The NA system works.
This website has loads of proof.
My personal favorite is the one day at a time approach. That really helped me brake patterns.
Good luck and take care.
I understand your problem with the whole religion thing I experienced the same thing at first.
Many of us did.
Just focus on gettting sober. Physically free of drugs.
Then.
Work the steps with a sponsor and an open mind.
The NA system works.
This website has loads of proof.
My personal favorite is the one day at a time approach. That really helped me brake patterns.
Good luck and take care.
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HI GS, this post really got my attention. I am currently taking between 40-80mg of oxycodone daily for some injuries. I have been taking them for 2 months. I am concerned about withdrawal and have started to taper this week, so far so good. I will be following this thread closely as I want to educate myself as much as possible. What type of withdrawal symptoms are you experiencing?
did I read that correctly that you are spending 15-20 thousand dollars per month on opiates? Wishing you the best, I will share my experience of my taper with you as I go through it. I've been told that the 3 month mark is where an addiction can develop and withdrawal can/will occur. Do you know if this is true?
did I read that correctly that you are spending 15-20 thousand dollars per month on opiates? Wishing you the best, I will share my experience of my taper with you as I go through it. I've been told that the 3 month mark is where an addiction can develop and withdrawal can/will occur. Do you know if this is true?
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Checking in, long day, drove to Connecticut for a baby shower had dinner with my cousin and her kids and then back, 6 hours or so in the car. Read a lot hear to keep myself from slipping backwards but still not clean. I am on a phone so I can't read all the posts while I type this so trying to respond to questions from what I read a few minutes ago and sorry if I miss anyone, I really appreciate all the encouragement and support. I read yesterday someone posted in one of the forums that they wrote out a plan to taper like 1 pill when u wake up and then one every 2 hours every whatever number of hours, going to try that I think to get down to a place that scares me less to stop, I have tried to stop before but I have increased amounts so much in the last 6 months that I really want to get down to a lower amount before stopping. To answer the last question I read, yes that amount was correct, I probably didn't need to be so specific, but probably 20-25 30mgs a day for the last year or so until last week, been cutting back to around 10 a day and want to write out a plan to get down to maybe 3 a day or less over next few weeks and stop from their, right now the withdrawal is just too much, hoping it will be easier if I get to a lower daily dosage. I know I have stopped for days in the past when I was doing less and it wasn't nearly as bad. In any case many thanks for the encouragement and I am still here and still on the road I know I need to be on and appreciate the support and fellowship here.
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HI GS, this post really got my attention. I am currently taking between 40-80mg of oxycodone daily for some injuries. I have been taking them for 2 months. I am concerned about withdrawal and have started to taper this week, so far so good. I will be following this thread closely as I want to educate myself as much as possible. What type of withdrawal symptoms are you experiencing?
did I read that correctly that you are spending 15-20 thousand dollars per month on opiates? Wishing you the best, I will share my experience of my taper with you as I go through it. I've been told that the 3 month mark is where an addiction can develop and withdrawal can/will occur. Do you know if this is true?
did I read that correctly that you are spending 15-20 thousand dollars per month on opiates? Wishing you the best, I will share my experience of my taper with you as I go through it. I've been told that the 3 month mark is where an addiction can develop and withdrawal can/will occur. Do you know if this is true?
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Im trying to quit opiates myself, as soon as the withdrawals kick in though I crumble, tapering holds of the sickness, but its just too temting having the pills around. I plan on quitting cold turkey soon but its hard with work and stuff.
Does anyone know about your addiction? When I quit years ago everyone knew about it, this time its a secret addiction, so I get no help and no one to talk to thats why I beleieve it's soooo hard. Good luck, but im not sure if tapering is the best route. Keep posting how you get on.
Does anyone know about your addiction? When I quit years ago everyone knew about it, this time its a secret addiction, so I get no help and no one to talk to thats why I beleieve it's soooo hard. Good luck, but im not sure if tapering is the best route. Keep posting how you get on.
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