One week
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One week
Hello - thank you for always answering every post and making me not feel like I am speaking into a judgmental void.
I mark seven days sober today.
And I cannot say how much better my life actually is, because I have gone out of my way to fill the empty time that was once filled with drinking, crying, moping and moaning a 25-year long marriage that was less than happy.
I've got a library card! Going to a concert in the park, met some new single women, read two books - I feel like if I can keep this up I can slowly reclaim the life I gave away in an ill-guided attempt to keep my spouse happy.
There have been plenty of things to set me off an make me drink. Things he has always done to cause me shame. And thanks to here and the determination that, for once, he couldn't beat me, I've been okay for seven days.
I know I must maintain this. I know I must keep the commitment. But darn! It feels good today!
I mark seven days sober today.
And I cannot say how much better my life actually is, because I have gone out of my way to fill the empty time that was once filled with drinking, crying, moping and moaning a 25-year long marriage that was less than happy.
I've got a library card! Going to a concert in the park, met some new single women, read two books - I feel like if I can keep this up I can slowly reclaim the life I gave away in an ill-guided attempt to keep my spouse happy.
There have been plenty of things to set me off an make me drink. Things he has always done to cause me shame. And thanks to here and the determination that, for once, he couldn't beat me, I've been okay for seven days.
I know I must maintain this. I know I must keep the commitment. But darn! It feels good today!
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Congratulations, sounds like you are doing lots of good things along the way as well. Don't be a stranger, keeping in touch with support is very important..even when things seem like they are going very, very well.
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Thanks, I appreciate that. It's funny how shameful he has made me feel, and how I have allowed it to happen. I miss the good parts of him very, very much. But the tiptoeing around... the never being good enough... It's not an excuse to drink, but it was one of the reasons I did. I didn't drink before marrying him. Now, every day that I am gone, I feel less and less like drinking again. I hope I can keep it up - I see this little glimmer of life ahead of me and it seems to nice. I just keep moving forward. Was your divorce nasty? My spouse is turning it quickly that way.
Originally Posted by biminiblue 
You sound great!
I am divorced, too. It got so much better when he was gone. I also quit drinking when that happened. You are on the brink of a much happier time in your life.
Congrats on the first week of many!
I am divorced, too. It got so much better when he was gone. I also quit drinking when that happened. You are on the brink of a much happier time in your life.
Congrats on the first week of many!
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Thank you all. I must tell you, had I not been able to come here and read and visit, it would have been tougher. It will remain part of my plan for future sobriety. I like not drinking. I like it a lot more than drinking.
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