New to Site (wanted to post in this thread as well)
 

Hey everyone. This is my first post, Ive been stalking the boards all day reading though and This place feels like a great way to help keep me accountable and has a real sense of community.

A little about me:
Im 28 and the mother to 2 precious kids (6.5 and 8 months). Newly remarried last month to a wonderful man who genuinely makes me happy. I have always assumed that my drinking was because I was unhappy or something was missing from my life, but the fact that I have relapsed hard this past month makes that assumption pretty invalid. I have been a problem drinker, that very quickly turned into an alcoholic, since I was 17. Never drank while pregnant with either of my children, so it is possible for me to just stop cold turkey...Why is it so hard to stay that way? UGH. Well its day 4 on this journey of sobriety for me yet again. My daughter is too old now and completely understands when "mom isnt acting right". I dont want to cause her any future problems or add to them (although i have to say, she is an incredibly well adjusted,smart,happy kid from all i see). I also would be subject to my Ex husbands wrath if he found out about my relapse. We share a 4day/3day a week custody arrangement , so it would not take long for the cat to be out of the bag. AA around here is not something I can do, based upon availability times and my work schedule. I am committed to recovery, So in addition in returning to church, and creating a more formal structure in my home, I wanted to join this community for added support. Thank you all for being here to help through this process!

Huge Welcome :) pleased your here x x x

Very happy to meet you CP.

I also drank for no apparent reason. I never used alcohol as an escape - just thought of it as fun & relaxing. I never dreamed I'd become completely dependent on it. We don't need it. Glad you're here with us. You can get free.

Welcome to the class of July 2015!

Hoping for a sober future for you here, stay connected.

Hi CP

Hi glad you found SR:) That's wonderful you decided to stop before you get to deep into it . Yes you sure don't want to risk the custody of your children .
Keep reading and posting - ask for help when your having problems . Usually always someone hear ..

Thank you all! Day 5 and happy to be here. I cant wait to be in full control of my life again, and be "THAT" mom. you know the one, she packs cute themed lunches for her kids, makes her own holiday wreaths, always put together. I want to be annoyingly chipper and sober lol.

Thanks for your update, you control this, stay with us!

welcome CP, stay with us and keep yourself busy...

soon enough you will be that annoyingly chipper person again :)

Welcome~
 

I hope you are still going strong, CP! I am new here too, I go to AA meetings and have 90 days of sobriety today. I don't have any children, but I know that must be hard. I hope you have a connection to a Higher Power that you can lean on. If I didn't have mine, I know I wouldn't be sober, and I try to strengthen my connection everyday. Not always that great at it, but I am striving to do my best. Glad you are here. :c011:

Hi, CP-

Welcome to SR! I'm a mom too and completely understand what you are saying.

Congrats on Day 5!!! Be kind and patient with yourself. The wreaths and lunches will follow, for certain!

That's awesome your so excited about everything, keep up the structure in your life to have people you can count on when you need them the most. That's awesome you have 2 daughter and are truly happily married that's something a lot of people can never achieve☺

Welcome CP

Welcome to the Forum CP!! :wave:

Welcome, I am glad that you have found your way on this path! Sending support from the UK!