Ruby2

Serenidad, I love your listed plan. I will be borrowing from it. Welcome back.

Serenidad

Venecia: thank you so much for the continued support!

HeartsAfire: thx for saving me a spot! :-)

MIRecovery-yes, I feel like I got to a point of desperation & it was very painful. I never want to go back! Thx for not giving up on me!

Angie: thank you for the kind words! :-)

Ruby: Sure! You can definitely borrow my "plan". Haha. Feel free to add anything from "your plan" that you think may help ME. ;-)

DuhDave

Great to hear from you Serenidad !

We're here for you...and you're here for us !

"Just Keep Swimming" back everyday and let us know how things are!

DD

Serenidad

Thanks so much Dave! How have YOU been?

Are you still swimming? ;-)

DuhDave

Well....could be better. I've "Floundered" a couple of weeks ago.

Looking to get back on track soon.

DD

Serenidad

That stinks Dave. This disease sucks! Keep fighting! We can BOTH do this! One thing that helps me get over the guilt and shame of my relapse last year is to try to remember that all we really have is "today". I've finally accepted that I can never change the past. Each wrong turn, each time I have fallen down, each mistake, has led me to where I am today.....a stronger person who is ready to take her life back! Never give up...I won't either! I promise! :-)

MythOfSisyphus

Never fear, Serenidad! We all know that the old AV can cause us to lash out sometimes. I'm glad to see you're coming back to the path.

Dee74

Make it now not soon Dave - what more has addiction got for you man - nothing

cut your losses, Dave

D

Serenidad

Yes Myth! That AV is literally CRAZY! Time to silence it...forever!!!

Dharma33

Serenidad, welcome back. Your plan sounds great- I am so glad to hear you are taking such wonderful care of yourself.

Soberwolf

Hi Serenidad just want you to know i really sense the change in you & want to congratulate you & wish you every success

Venecia

What Dee said.

Serenidad

Dharma and Wolf!!! You've both always been so supportive! Thanks for not giving up on me. :-)

PurpleKnight

You got this Serenidad!! I have no doubt!!

Zebra1275

Welcome back. Log in here a lot of you need to, even if it's in the middle of the night where you are. Somebody will be here.

Berrybean

So pleased to see you back on the forum

Good point about sugar crashes - I hadn't thought of it like that before. (I am very pleased I read that AFTER eating my Magnum Infinity ice-cream (Saturday night treat) though. Haha. I'd been trying to cut out refined sugar and failing miserably - hopefully if I think of it as part of my sobriety plan then I'll be more successful with it.

Big hugs to you. I really hoped you'd be back xx

Serenidad

Thanks Purple. I will never say I've "got this" because that's what I said after 5 & 1/2 years only to relapse a short time later. I will ALWAYS be on guard!!! This disease will never be totally silent. I feel that it waits.....waits for a moment of weakness so it can pounce again!

If you would have asked me a year and a half ago if I would ever drink again, I would have said "NEVER! NO WAY would I ever ever drink again!" I stopped doing what I needed to do and sure enough....it snuck up on me. I got complacent. In recovery we are either moving towards sobriety or towards a relapse, right?

Anyway, thanks for letting me get that off my chest! (Not that you had a choice! Haha). It's been a hard day craving-wise but I got through them. It's truly exhausting! They popped up out of no where a few times and they always scare me! I do NOT want to EVER drink again....one day at a time!

I hope you are having a good weekend Purple! :-)