exwell66

been sober for the best part of I think 100 days or so.I desided to drink on a vacation I took....5 days of drinking,,,then went on a 24 hr fishing trip had a few before it last week.....deciced to have a drink tonight......I like mt 13 hr days and my life now im not kidding myself thinking im ok ,,,,I might be slipping at least I know it

Soberwolf

Can you pour the rest away ?

Dee74

do yourself a favour and go at look back at some of your old posts.
That's what's at risk here.

what do you plan to do about it ex?

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Marcher13

exwell drinking might seem fine "in the moment" but in retrospect it never does. As you are smart enough to know you are slipping then tell AV to shove off and pour the rest down the sink.

Nowsthetime

I agree with both previous posters!!!

Please read your old posts. Remember why you came here and try to keep your eye on the prize. Drink now and tomorrow what?

What do YOU really want?

Be strong, we are with you.

PurpleKnight

Time to draw a line in the sand and go no further down the rabbit hole.

Pour the rest away, recommit to Sobriety again and tweak your plan moving forward!!

We both know alcohol is a slippery slope, things will always get worse, but we don't have to let it go that far!!

thomas11

Having the knowledge of the slip won't make the slide any less damaging. I went back and read your other threads. It might be a good idea for you to take a quick browse through them as well. I hope you stop before you fall. Wishing you the best exwell.

FreeOwl

I remember making that decision.

It was all ok for a while.... Then it wasn't.

And it got worse and worse until finally after a year and a half long binge, I was able to pull out of it.

And yet STILL sometimes the odd thought passes through my awareness 'maybe just ONE beer, here it there'.

This addiction is sly, sneaky, persistent.

I have decades of evidence as to where it all leads.

I imagine you have your own evidence too.

I hope you'll end this now before it slips out of your control.

MIRecovery

Unfortunately drinking never leads us anywhere but down. The good news is we can choose to get off the elevator anytime we want

On The Road

Exwell

This f***ing disease only gets worse. It's progressive and relentless if we allow it in our lives. "A little" will always turn into A LOT - and that leads to blackouts, foolishness, and serious health problems. I thought I could I moderate my drinking. And that would last only a couple of days before I was full-on out of control. I repeated that cycle over and over until I accepted the truth: I'm an alcoholic and I can't f-ing drink a drop. Why not join me?

NestWasEmpty

Exwell , I didn't read your old posts , but to me it sounds like a lot here that have posted care very much about you . If you let that AV stay in your head , no doubt you'll get sucked into that Deep black Hole !! Ask yourself "truthfully" is that really what you want ? Pull from that strength you had and still have to stay sober for that 100 days and toss that Wicked stuff away !! Eat something and call it a night . Tomorrows a New Day

SoberHoopsFan

You can definitely start again, I know that is hard to read or see if you are lost in the fog of alcohol, but when you sober up you can re-commit. Sounds like you had a nice stretch, you would not be on this website if you truly desired to return to that old life.

exwell66

thanks for the support you all make so much sense...and I cant go back to the way I was....going to start on my meds again,,,,,,I love my life now...drank half pint of vodka yesterday left the other half...will powere for now I know a half gallon will be calling,,,so back to my safety valve,,,,,meds

Banjoist

The best way to have the willpower to avoid that other half gallon? Will it directly down the drain!

...you can do it. Don't beat yourself up, give yourself grace, and put one foot in front of the other.

Elizabeth333

Thank you for posting - I have gone down the same path many times. If I go out again - there will be no return - just death and it's an ugly death. Can not bear to have my loved ones suffer anymore. We can do this.

2ndhandrose

Please pour the rest down the drain!

We are all behind you, exwell66

CaseyW

Hope you've poured the other half of that bottle down the drain already, exwell. You're in my thoughts and prayers today.

Anna

I hope you've gotten rid of the rest of the alcohol and that you're back on track.

DoubleFelix

I'm glad you posted, exwell. I too hope you poured it out. Having that stuff around is just too hard, why make it more difficult than it needs to be?