soberCJ

So I'm sitting here browsing the forums with a nasty hangover - hopefully the last one I will ever have. Realizing there are so many people with the same problem.

I'm not an every day drinker, I'm a once, maybe twice a week all out binge drinker. It use to be 2-3 times a week so I was able to cut back a little but that's not working for me anymore. I have to quit. I want to quit. Last night was the weekly binge - that I'm so regretting now.

Nope, can't have just 1 glass of wine, gotta drink the whole effin bottle. I had a bad day, need wine. I had a good day, need wine. The kids are driving me crazy, need wine...yea you know the excuses and how there's one for every occasion.

I will no longer have any friends and I'm ok with that. They aren't really friends anyway, their drinking buddies and once that is gone, I have nothing in common with them. I'm tired of waking up wondering what I may have said, done or posted online while drunk off my @ss. I need to fill my life with sober people.

I've been trying for years, then get 10-20-30 days into it and think, Oh I've got this under control I can have just 1....

Crazy how the addictive brain works.

So everyone on here seems super supportive and that's what I think I need - just somewhere to come when things seem a little rough so I can get away, vent or just talk to someone else going through the same journey.

Looking forward to spending the rest of my life sober, and hopefully happy.

Anna

Yes, denial is such a big part of alcoholism.

I'm glad you posted and that you're still working on your recovery.

DitzyDandelion

Join us in the July 2015 club.

2WheelsGood

That, in my opinion, is the most dangerous time. The euphoria of quitting starts to wear off, life goes back to the routine, and your AV comes out of the shadows with a whispers: "You got this. Good going! Let's go celebrate...!"

Each time I've quit over the past 18 years it's never been for more than about 6 weeks. Right around the time I think I no longer have a problem I start again. A couple of drinks on a Saturday night. Then Thursday. Then Friday/Saturday. Then Wednesday night. And eventually 5-6 nights a week I'm putting down 6+ drinks. Then something bad happens and I quit again.

I find I just can't handle it yet. Probably never. But this time I can clearly hear the AV when that little sh__ comes out of his hole, and so far I shout him back down in there. This time it feels different. At least I'm still making it this time.

38 days so far.

thomas11

Hi soberCJ, You've come to a good place. There are people that can and will help you tremendously. This forum has been become very important to me. I spend time here blabbing my thoughts and support for others, and reading (and reading, and reading) when I would/could be drinking. There are some lighthearted banter, but for the most part, it is just a group of people who really understand that alcohol is destroying their lives slowly and methodically. Welcome and I wish you the very best.

Quirky

Hi soberCJ and welcome. We are glad you are joining us. We are all on this journey together, and you will find understanding and support here.

Soberwolf

Welcome to SR SoberCJ

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum SoberCJ!!

Copper442

Hi and welcome SoberCJ!

This is definitely a great place for support so post as often as you need. Especially before you pick up a drink.

Dee74

Yeah, I was ready for change too and this place really helped me - I know we can help you too

Welcome to SR SoberCJ.

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Hevyn

Good to meet you SoberCJ. I drank like that once too - and eventually I found myself completely dependent on it. It's wise to take a look at what it's doing to your life. We're glad you're here.