Nuudawn

I have another first week of sobriety under my belt and I'm glad of it. I just wanted to check in those for those who know me and may be wondering. You know who you are ..and you are so very important to me...all you cyber kin of my sobriety's past. I had a case of the wobbles last night when some hounds of loneliness came to call. The "dark side" was trying to tell me that a glass of wine or two would chase those blues straight away....perhaps they would but it's that "calling" that keeps me lonely in the first place..not "truly" connecting authentically with other souls. The "dark side" would prefer I hide in some booze infused limbo of going nowhere. Thankfully, spirit told me that it was okay to feel sad and lonely...to just get on through it to the other side. I got some movies and a bag of cookies and I got on through. I know the cookies are another form of "stuffing" but hell, they don't make me moronic, mean, drive drunk or text old boyfriends.

Hevyn

Movies & bag of cookies - a perfect distraction. Happy to hear the good news - one week is wonderful.

Dee74

Congrats on that week Nuu

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Leshar

Loneliness is not pleasant to deal with, Nuu. Congratulations on your sobriety and pushing through!

Soberwolf

Congrats NuDawn

Verte

Nuu, nice job getting through the night of wobbles and achieving one week. I'm really glad that you are here and going through your reconnection process. Mmmm. Movies and a bag of cookies? I'd take that any day of the week.

GroundhogDay

Congrats on one week!

TV and junk food for me tonight too.

bigsombrero

Good to hear from you, Nuu. We're still here kicking butt in soberland, glad to have you back on the board! Join the "Weekenders" thread on Thursday morning, it goes from Thurs-Sunday and we all support each other through those tough times. There's a lot of nice chatter there and people share what's going on in their sober lives, you might enjoy it.

Venecia

The "dark side" wants to get darker. It just doesn't tell you that.

Congrats on your week, Nuu! This can happen for you!

simplex

Great job on one week keep it going!

Ruby2

Congrats Nuudawn. I'm glad you got through the wobbles. They SO want us to give in but you didn't.

HeartsAfire

Notimetoloose

Congratulations on a week...great to see you back

Nuudawn

Thanks guys! Thanks for the tip Sombrero (so nice to see you still kickin sober butt) but unfortunately my internet access is spotty at best. I'm having lunch out at the moment so I am taking advantage of their wifi. Last night was..enlightening. I ended up getting called off of work due to an unexpected restaurant closure for a flooring issue. Suddenly I was left with a great expanse of time I didn't know what to do with.....
And yes, again the "dark side" had some ideas but I batted them away without too much fuss. I went home and did battle some lonely self pity awhile but I decided to go outside and make a fire in my firepit. I had yet to do that sans booze or company...

I hacked away at some wood awhile with my new axe and got enough for starter. I was a bit anxious about making a fire just for self without booze. Why? I have no idea. I just hadn't done it before I guess. So. I made my little fire and cooked a smokie over the fire ..and then spent a good hour or two out there reading by the fire. It was lovely. I finally went in about 10. It was actually a really wonderful evening! I couldn't help but ponder how I fell back into the "I need a bit of booze for any sort of fun or experience enjoyment" habit!

Everything is good. Tonight I have a "kayak rescue" course on a nearby lake that I'm excited for.

See you all again soon!

CaseyW

Congrats on day 8! Reading by a fire you built yourself sounds like a lovely way to spend a sober evening.

SoberLeigh

Congrats, Nuu; movies, cookies and a fire pit fire sound wonderful.