The binge cycle.
Another reset here--July 12. I got a really nasty e-mail message from a woman I've been friends with for years. While completely loaded, I had sent her a link to a song about love. I don't even remember sending it, but there it was in my "sent" items. Sadly, we are no longer friends.
That's what drinking gets you. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
That's what drinking gets you. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
I feel your pain JD . I did something just as stupid not long ago.
Was mortified when I saw my phone messages next morning OMG !
That's not who we are .
Drinking causes nothing but **** in life , it's not the real us .
Don't brood on it.
Either appologise and be honest or move on. Geez I wish I could practise what I preach hahah ...it's not always that easy is it.
:-)
Was mortified when I saw my phone messages next morning OMG !
That's not who we are .
Drinking causes nothing but **** in life , it's not the real us .
Don't brood on it.
Either appologise and be honest or move on. Geez I wish I could practise what I preach hahah ...it's not always that easy is it.
:-)
I feel your pain JD . I did something just as stupid not long ago.
Was mortified when I saw my phone messages next morning OMG !
That's not who we are .
Drinking causes nothing but **** in life , it's not the real us .
Don't brood on it.
Either appologise and be honest or move on. Geez I wish I could practise what I preach hahah ...it's not always that easy is it.
:-)
Was mortified when I saw my phone messages next morning OMG !
That's not who we are .
Drinking causes nothing but **** in life , it's not the real us .
Don't brood on it.
Either appologise and be honest or move on. Geez I wish I could practise what I preach hahah ...it's not always that easy is it.
:-)
It was a valuable lesson, but a very painful one.
Another reset here--July 12. I got a really nasty e-mail message from a woman I've been friends with for years. While completely loaded, I had sent her a link to a song about love. I don't even remember sending it, but there it was in my "sent" items. Sadly, we are no longer friends.
That's what drinking gets you. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
That's what drinking gets you. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
HMS, I had to have a plan. Just not drinking and avoiding people you drink with will only get you so far if you're like me. You can't live life watching Netflix. At some point, real life intrudes. Then what do you do? Panic and drink? Get bored and drink? Or have a plan to fall back on to get through it as painlessly as possible.
There are some great suggestions here. Be well.
There are some great suggestions here. Be well.
I was going to AA meetings for awhile but it was just like going to church. Saying the Lord's Prayer and like that.
Yeah. That's probably a stupid reason not to attend.
I downloaded a document called "Action Planning for Prevention and Recovery", from Dee's link above). I'm starting through it now. I've also scheduled another session with my shrink (I'm clinically depressed).
Yeah. That's probably a stupid reason not to attend.
I downloaded a document called "Action Planning for Prevention and Recovery", from Dee's link above). I'm starting through it now. I've also scheduled another session with my shrink (I'm clinically depressed).
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hey JD, actions taken while very drunk can be costly in many ways (as you have realized). But its not a death sentence. Maybe tuck this away as a lesson learned and more motivation to remain sober. Wishing you the best. I also bookmarked the link Dee posted. Gonna read it later.
So. Day 5 was super tough. I never thought I would have the cravings and anxiety over a drink like I did yesterday. But I made it through. Drank some soda to get my sugar and had a couple cups of coffee. Went for a long walk in 120 degree heat. Sweating helped.
Day six. Big healthy breakfast. Extra cups of coffee and planning for a swim and maybe another walk.
My last drink was on July 11th. The day I forgot to call my youngest on his birthday.
Enough is enough.
Day six. Big healthy breakfast. Extra cups of coffee and planning for a swim and maybe another walk.
My last drink was on July 11th. The day I forgot to call my youngest on his birthday.
Enough is enough.
Yes. Working on that plan.
I'm focusing on doing proactive things before letting solitude and depression take me back to the bottle.
Walks, swimming, reading, coffee, Netflix. Doing better on eating better and more on schedule.
I'm focusing on doing proactive things before letting solitude and depression take me back to the bottle.
Walks, swimming, reading, coffee, Netflix. Doing better on eating better and more on schedule.
I am currently out of the country and where I'm at only has one AA meeting place. It's clear across the country and I have no wheels here. When I get home I will be going back to AA meetings and am open to any suggestions for recovery planning.
Well, ****.
I'm ready for professional help. A year plus since I have been on here. was maintaining well enough. But couldn't hold the beast at bay any longer.
Time to get right for good. I've printed off your Planning/Recovery booklet.
I am going to be calling in to get some professional help in the morning as well.
This weekend cements my desire to get clean.
I'm ready for professional help. A year plus since I have been on here. was maintaining well enough. But couldn't hold the beast at bay any longer.
Time to get right for good. I've printed off your Planning/Recovery booklet.
I am going to be calling in to get some professional help in the morning as well.
This weekend cements my desire to get clean.
Welcome back HMS - there's a second booklet you might find useful too - both are here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
D
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
D
I plan on reading myself to sleep today after work
I see that one of the ideas is cutting out caffeine... I think I'll start with one vice and pick up the vitamins and then work on cutting out caffeine. One step at a time.
I see that one of the ideas is cutting out caffeine... I think I'll start with one vice and pick up the vitamins and then work on cutting out caffeine. One step at a time.
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Hi HMS,
Welcome back and congrats for being sober, i ve been in similar situation of yours, Even after being sober for a month , Alcohol carving might lead us to drinking we start it saying just 1 peg which results ending up in our previous condition. let me phrase u a sentence, " Cigarette bud can cause forest fire ". so even 1 drop of alcohol will take us back, so be strong and make up that you never drink again... all the best.
Welcome back and congrats for being sober, i ve been in similar situation of yours, Even after being sober for a month , Alcohol carving might lead us to drinking we start it saying just 1 peg which results ending up in our previous condition. let me phrase u a sentence, " Cigarette bud can cause forest fire ". so even 1 drop of alcohol will take us back, so be strong and make up that you never drink again... all the best.
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