Struggling
 

Hi it's me again - I posted a while back confessing I am still drinking heavily and thanks to having rods put into my neck was popping prescribed tramadol alongside.

I've lost my partner he's had enough. I went and saw a brilliant Dr who happened to be an addiction specialist :-) I begged him to get me off the tramadol but didn't tell him about the booze. I have no idea why, shame I suppose.

He's started me on buponephrine and I've thrown away all my tramadol. He plans to taper me quickly and seems confident. I've stopped drinking, day two now - ive never withdrawn like this before. I'm sweating and my teeth are chattering, and can't get any time off work.

I suppose I should have stopped one thing at a time but I don't want anything else poisoning me. I'm so sick of it destroying my life and my loved ones lives.

I've got to do a talk today I have a really important job - people where looking at me strangely yesterday.

Would you mind checking in on me every so often as im scared but also more positive than I've been for years

All that sounds really tough Daisy!, sure you have to give the talk? Mind you, if you get through it ok you can do anything, including having a good go at getting sober.
Hope you're on your way to being well very soon.
x

Hi, Daisy. Sorry that you are having such a rough time.

I'd give it a shot in telling your doctor about your alcohol use and plan at quitting.

Good job on day 1 and have faith that you can get through this!

Good luck, Daisy! I agree that you should be honest with your doctor but it sounds like you're on the right track.

Good luck with the talk Daisy that does sound tough, on the plus side, work for me was a welcome distraction from cravings and thinging about how hard quitting was

The sweating is very common - I don't think there is much you can do about it Daisy, the good thing is they don't seem to last more than a week or 2 at the most

I hope the talk goes ok Daisy - subs withdrawal and alcohol withdrawal can;t be much fun.

wishing you the best

D

It's tramadol and alcohol, the subs are for the tramadol, he said it's the quickest way of getting off tramadol without too much withdrawal as long as I don't abuse and follow strict instructions.
I got sent home, I told them I was ill and couldn't do it, they were very kind.

I've read on here about withdrawal for years but never experienced the severe anxiety, nausea, sweats as you've described before, they are terrible.

I've got a counsellor now but they can't see me for a few days. This is going to be long term I know. I will keep reading on here it's helping so much.

Glad to know that reading on here is helping you out. Keep doing that and working on your recovery! You can do this!

Really glad your here Daisy

Hang in there Daisy. You're right... reading and posting here helps a great deal. Wishing you the best. :)

I just woke up covered in sweat and I feel a bit better :-). I'm going to the feed shop to buy my daughters horse some hay.

It means the world you rep,ting to me thank you.

I can still taste wine its disgusting

Daisy, the early days are hard to get through but it sounds like things are a bit better for you today.

We're here for you!

Hope you are feeling better today Daisy. I seem to find myself slipping when I don't check in daily, this site definitely helps.

Glad you found your way back here, daisy. Wishing you the best today!

Hang in there Daisy!! Hope the talk goes well!! :)

Sorry for my misreading :)

D

Hi Daisy, you got a full roster of people here willing to be here for you the whole way. Withdrawal is unpleasant, no two ways about it. Glad you were able to postpone your speaking engagement. One foot in front of the other....keep moving forward.

"I can still taste wine, it's disgusting" - hold that thought, hold it tight.
Some of the self help resources on Utube really play on this sort of technique, change all your romantic and longing thoughts about alcohol to negative ones.
It's something I've been using and along with other tools, it's helping me.
Hope life is on the up very soon.
x

Thank you so much for your helpful words!

I feel much better this morning :-D. I'm feeling grief at the loss of my relationship but I know every single thing that went wrong, every argument we had was because I was drunk. I don't even think he knew half the time because I managed to twist it around to his fault all the time :-(. So I can accept the loss of him and it's not going to make me drink. The thought of drink still makes me panic and feel sick FarToGo so I will go on YouTube and learn to use it :-)

So I'm thinking that's the drink withdrawal through the worst, now I've got to go through the tramadol withdrawal. I've not had any for three days and the bupenorphine has masked all the usual symptoms I get when coming of tramadol before.
I hope and pray my dr is right when he said I can get off it within two weeks with minimal withdrawal!
One day I'm not going to let a single drug enter my body.