Billynomates

nearly day 30. have started again.. had a few bottles over the past few days. why?? why have I done this???

I just need someone to speak to who doesnt think im a complete screw up.

doggonecarl

Lot of people have benefited from face-to-face support, support such as the fellowship of AA.

AnvilheadII

you are not a screw up, but you have a screwed up PROBLEM that needs a proper solution. if whatever method you are using right now to stay sober isn't working, it's time to try something else.

Opivotal

Hi Billynomates, first let me say, you are not a screw up.

I drank, because I'm an alcoholic. No matter how hard I tried not to drink... I did.

It wasn't until I wanted to be sober, more than I wanted to drink, that I stopped.

I researched every available resource . I would've done anything to stop the madness.

Support made all the difference for me.

Do you have a plan in place?

Fly N Buy

You may or may not be a screw up - I don't know you. Even so, I will promise you I was a bigger screw up than 99.9 % of people out there, so probably a bigger screw up than you!

Here's the really good news - if I can get past worrying about what I did yesterday and focus only on today I will start to lose my self pity and the crap that holds me back. Even us "screw ups" can get sober and change our lives.

No one here ran in the front door on a winning streak, friend Slowly as I removed myself my last drink things started to change. People started to trust me again and I started to trust myself..........

Come join the mother load of screw ups! You're in the right place

SweetBaby

Recovery is probably one of the hardest things Alcoholics will face. You are not a screw up. Lots of people have to start over.

Anna

You are definitely not a screw-up. You're here and working on your recovery and that's great. You had almost a month sober so try to figure out what made you decide to drink again and find a new strategy to deal with it. You can do this!

PurpleKnight

What have you been doing for support during your 30 days?!!

For me in isolation I always seemed to go back to drinking, my mind would sell me every fairytale as to why drinking would be a good idea, instead I needed something outside of myself to keep me focused on the task at hand, something to give me a second opinion on things!!

Go at things again!! You can do this!!

Soberwolf

Your not a screw up bud like others have said i think itd be wise to write up a recovery plan SR has a sticky at the top of Newcomers & i think if you ask D he has sound advice & useful links

Dee74

Hi Billy

I did that lots of times...it's part of the condition. We really have to work hard at making changes - without changes, change simply can't occur.

whats your recovery plan like? there are some good suggestions here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

D

Hevyn

Billy - screw ups and failures don't keep trying. You're here posting for support and encouragement - not ignoring what's happening to you. I had to go through this a few times in order to be convinced I had no control. You've learned something valuable - and you can do this. Never give up on yourself.

Billynomates

thank you all for your reply!
ive no plan, or support. I just decided to stop that day and I was doing great until now.

Saskia

Billy, definitely a plan and supports are critical in helping us change our thinking. Doing nothing but white-knuckling is not an effective way for most of us to stay sober for the long run. You deserve to be sober and you deserve to have a complete life!

Dee74

make one, and get some Billy

D

thomas11

"Billy - screw ups and failures don't keep trying."

Pretty solid statement right there. Your journey is just beginning.