Help, I really want a drink I've almost got 90 days and have found a great AA group, but for some reason today I've just hit a wall. I've been fantasizing about getting drunk, just that euphoric release and escape. I'm 49 and am thinking sh**t, the kids are about gone, I'd like to celebrate now that life is getting a little easier. I've been reading a lot of drinking memories. Currently I'm reading Blackout which is good. Normally reading these books just confirms my decision to be sober. But today I really want a bottle of wine. I know I'd be so depressed in the morning. Please give me some encouragement, SR family. |
Hi, I am in the same boat as you, fairly new to recovery and I sometimes fantasize about having a drink. I know I can't have just one though and I just try and remember how bad the hangover and withdrawals were. It's tough but it goes away, just tell yourself "do I want to celebrate with this poison which might make me feel good for a couple hours only to suffer the agony of the after effects all over again?". Celebrate by waking up sober tomorrow. *hugs |
Yes, some times are tougher than others! When I have a craving, i "think it through to the end" - which means I think about how I will feel taking the first sip (a high) and on to drinking too much, waking up with a miserable hangover, feeling rotten physically the next day, followed by the psychic misery after that. By the time I get to the end, the craving is gone. |
Hi Cleomie - it's actually pretty common to feel a little wobbly around 90 days - it's long enough for us to forget the really bad stuff about drinking and not quite long enough for us to see the full benefits of staying sober. I often confused abstinence for control. I'd start thinking 'I feel really good and I haven't had a drink in months - maybe I'm a normal drinker now...?' nope. :) Stay with it Cleomie. Look back to your earliest posts here if you need more persuading to stay sober :) D |
Thank you sva, Saskia, and Dee for your encouragement. I pushed thru, and didn't succumb to the temptation. I have to remember HALT too, because at the time I was a combination of Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired, and I was feeling very vulnerable. I'm going to hit the hay early tonite, and put this day behind me. Thank you again for your encouragement. |
Cleomie good for you for getting through that. And, good that you recognized that you were a bit off-balance. |
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Good job. You talked your way out of it. I am 10 months sober and still get those urges to drink. Someone on here said a quote (don't remember who) but: play the tape all the way through. Sure that first drink sounds fabulous. But then what? I can't believe now that I am sober that people are actually ok with 1 or 2 glasses of wine. That would never be enough for me! I need to drink until blackout or pass out. Then cue the shame, remorse and guilt. |
Hi Cleaomie, great idea to post before you popped the cork. Glad it has passed. It would have been a shame to put a blemish on those 90 hard earned days. Wishing you the best. |
Hi Cleomie, glad you did not drink. I have had urges but have continued to stay strong myself. As a poster said above, play the tape to the end. 90 days will come and go and soon you will be at 180, i wish you well. |
Congratulations Cleomie and sva on seeing through your cravings. They can be very dangerous at first but I hope that as you go you'll become more confident in dealing with them. HALT is super important, so look after yourselves. |
Wow 90 days is amazing. HALT is a big player and like Dee said it seems (I have read) that 90 days is a weak point for many. I am inspired by your post and hope to reach 90 days too. I am glad you reached out here :) |
Cleomie, good work getting through. And it is work sometimes. I went to a meeting tonight and one guy said he couldn't control how he felt but he could control how he handled the feeling. That was a great thing to hear for me today. Congrats on 90. |
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