One week!
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One week!
Good morning.
It's 5:00 am here and I'm about to head out on a run. I haven't been awake and feeling good this way for many years.
This first week of sobriety (7 days today!) is truly the happiest event imaginable. In some ways it is just a puny 7 days without drink.....big deal right? As you guys know however... Those are 7 hard won days!
Last night, driving home without a bottle of vodka between my legs, (cringe), was the first time that I slipped up and found myself thinking about random mundane things rather than " I must find a way to drink, must drink, screw this plan I'm drinking" and so on. That commute through 30 miles of farmland hasn't been a sober one ever until last week when it became a sober miserable one. What progress a week brought for me to just get a glimpse of the future last night.
I've gotten a lot from your posts, this invisible global group of fellow sojourners.
I hope your days are good.
D
It's 5:00 am here and I'm about to head out on a run. I haven't been awake and feeling good this way for many years.
This first week of sobriety (7 days today!) is truly the happiest event imaginable. In some ways it is just a puny 7 days without drink.....big deal right? As you guys know however... Those are 7 hard won days!
Last night, driving home without a bottle of vodka between my legs, (cringe), was the first time that I slipped up and found myself thinking about random mundane things rather than " I must find a way to drink, must drink, screw this plan I'm drinking" and so on. That commute through 30 miles of farmland hasn't been a sober one ever until last week when it became a sober miserable one. What progress a week brought for me to just get a glimpse of the future last night.
I've gotten a lot from your posts, this invisible global group of fellow sojourners.
I hope your days are good.
D
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Join Date: Jun 2015
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7 days is great! You are on your way. Be vigilant, though...that mean AV can rear its ugly head at any time. Have a plan for, and if that happens to keep you on course.
Congrats again.
Congrats again.
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Thanks guys for the congrats and more importantly, the cautions.
I am typically optimistic which has served me well in life in business, relationships, etc.... That optimism, however, is what scares the heck out of me with relation to my drinking. I have quit before and later come to the decision that my drinking was completely controllable, that I just had a rough patch, that there was nothing abnormal about it etc... and then back on the bottle. My plan is to remain cautiously optimistic in this matter.
Best to both of you.
d
I am typically optimistic which has served me well in life in business, relationships, etc.... That optimism, however, is what scares the heck out of me with relation to my drinking. I have quit before and later come to the decision that my drinking was completely controllable, that I just had a rough patch, that there was nothing abnormal about it etc... and then back on the bottle. My plan is to remain cautiously optimistic in this matter.
Best to both of you.
d
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Congrats DT.....Can relate your long drive home issues. I have dealt with the same temptation and for 20+ years I was abusing that time with open containers, etc...... A miracle i was never caught. But now i can do that without fear. The ice tea for the ride home works much better than the other option.
Blessings
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Nice going on 7 days. That's amazing. Cautiously optimistic sounds like a good mindset. Just remember, your AV is not done with you. Have a plan in place when it shows up cause it will. Don't be caught off-guard. John
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Congratulations DT! That's wonderful.
I've just finished my first week too and share your sense of cautious optimism.
I keep reminding myself that, ultimately, this is the only thing I can potentially control, whether I drink.
My parter may never come back.
My company may fold and I lose my job.
My flat could burn down.
I could get hit by a bus/ fall seriously ill, etc. or worse, any of these things could happen to someone I love.
Can't do a thing to avoid any of these, just whether I drink and even then, whether I drink today.
Not looking forward to all the industry parties next week, I can tell you. It'll be my first test, when I'm inevitably offered champagne (I loved champagne).
I've just finished my first week too and share your sense of cautious optimism.
I keep reminding myself that, ultimately, this is the only thing I can potentially control, whether I drink.
My parter may never come back.
My company may fold and I lose my job.
My flat could burn down.
I could get hit by a bus/ fall seriously ill, etc. or worse, any of these things could happen to someone I love.
Can't do a thing to avoid any of these, just whether I drink and even then, whether I drink today.
Not looking forward to all the industry parties next week, I can tell you. It'll be my first test, when I'm inevitably offered champagne (I loved champagne).
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