Placebo

Good morning, I'm back for a second try. I really, really really want to get clean, but fail miserably. 1 month long relapse after ~6months clean time. How stupid of me.

I'm really scared, after 5 years of being addicted to opiates and sooo many failed attempts, I'm really afraid I will not get out of this mess. I feel so lonely and overwhelmed.

How did you guys do it without AA/NA? How did you cope with these feelings of hopelessness and depression?

Soberwolf

So glad yourbk Placebo have you got a plan bud

Eshgham

You can do it again mate.

For your question, all I have are cliches unfortunately. But they work for me when I manage to string them together for a few days. Exercise, meditation, healthy eating & good conversation.

Dee74

Hi Placebo

I think it always boils down to two main questions - what have you been doing for your recovery?

what more could you do?

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FreeOwl

For me, the hopelessness and depression cleared away after a while.

Of course, I didn't do it without AA. That was a part of my recovery and a very helpful part of working through the hopelessness and depression....

Placebo

They are not cliche at all. Just got back from 1 hour jogging and I feel great. I eat relatively healthy, but adding meditation & not isolating myself are needed.

Thanks for replying.

Placebo

Dee I haven't been doing much. But as you & SoberWolf said I need a better plan.
First and foremost I will remain vigilant of AV & not rationalize that I can moderate my usage.
Not skipping exercise, reaching out for help, meditation, praying, volunteer, read and post here.

Thanks for replying, even tough I don't know you, when I need help you're always here & that makes me accountable.

Placebo

I wish we had AA/NA in my country, but we don't. But knowing that depression will be gone after a while gives me hope. Thanks FreeOwl.

Quirky

Placebo,
For me it's the one hour, one day at a time scenario. Looking forward and thinking FOREVER is too much for me..
I agree with others who have posted here, exercise, proper diet and whatever spiritual road you follow will all benefit you immensely.
You can do this and we are here for you to help you on your journey.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Placebo!! You can do this, tweak your plan and keep moving forward!!