When ever something good happens
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When ever something good happens
I get slammed w\ something bad. Seems someone very dear to is close to passing. It is the cycle of life they say.
But it's not that cut & dry for an emotional wreck like me. I've been teetering on the edge of sanity this entire "sobriety" journey. It's getting to the point I honestly see no benefit from being sober as apposed to drunk now.
Ehhhh.
If the thunder don't get ya
Then the lightening will
Dennis
But it's not that cut & dry for an emotional wreck like me. I've been teetering on the edge of sanity this entire "sobriety" journey. It's getting to the point I honestly see no benefit from being sober as apposed to drunk now.
Ehhhh.
If the thunder don't get ya
Then the lightening will
Dennis
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This is a very difficult time for you. Surround yourself with support-in whatever form you can get it. I know how this feels. Wish I could tell you that I was always successful. This place, though, is the place to be to get support . SR people are amazing.
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Originally Posted by aussieblue 
Sorry. Sending strength your way.
Dennis
I Said Death Don't Have No Mercy In This Land.
Death Will Leave You Standing And Crying In This Land,
In This Land. Whoa! Come To Your House,
Y' Know It Don't Stay Long, Y' Look In Bed This Morning,
Children Find That Your Brothers And Sisters Are Gone.
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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I am so sorry Dennis.
Drinking will only make things worse in the long run. It always does for me...I just wake up hating myself for not being able to resist the temptation.
Try to hang on. Everyone here is behind you and supports you.
ODAAT.
Drinking will only make things worse in the long run. It always does for me...I just wake up hating myself for not being able to resist the temptation.
Try to hang on. Everyone here is behind you and supports you.
ODAAT.
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11
Not to be ignorant, but fail to see how ..
Dennis
I Said Death Don't Have No Mercy In This Land.
Death Will Leave You Standing And Crying In This Land,
In This Land. Whoa! Come To Your House,
Y' Know It Don't Stay Long, Y' Look In Bed This Morning,
Children Find That Your Brothers And Sisters Are Gone.
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
Dennis
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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Hang in there dont let your AV tell your head things like that
Sorry about your friend bud but i bet they'd prefer you sober and cognitive rather than drunk & wasted
Loosing ppl is more than hard trust me i know but drinking will only distort your pain
If you ever want to talk send a msg bud
Sorry about your friend bud but i bet they'd prefer you sober and cognitive rather than drunk & wasted
Loosing ppl is more than hard trust me i know but drinking will only distort your pain
If you ever want to talk send a msg bud
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Originally Posted by Ringthedoorbell
I am so sorry Dennis.
Drinking will only make things worse in the long run. It always does for me...I just wake up hating myself for not being able to resist the temptation.
Try to hang on. Everyone here is behind you and supports you.
ODAAT.
Drinking will only make things worse in the long run. It always does for me...I just wake up hating myself for not being able to resist the temptation.
Try to hang on. Everyone here is behind you and supports you.
ODAAT.
Dennis
Been walking all morning
Went walking all night
I can't see much difference
Between the dark and light
And I feel the wind
And I taste the rain
Never in my mind
To cause so much pain
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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Yes I received your letter yesterday
About the time the doorknob broke
When you asked how I was doing
Was that some kind of joke?
All these people that you mentioned
Yes I know them they're quite lame
I had to rearrange their faces
And give them all another name
Right now I can't read so good
Don't send me no more letters, no
Not unless you mail them
From Desolation Row
Dennis
Sober, crushed, shattered ....
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
About the time the doorknob broke
When you asked how I was doing
Was that some kind of joke?
All these people that you mentioned
Yes I know them they're quite lame
I had to rearrange their faces
And give them all another name
Right now I can't read so good
Don't send me no more letters, no
Not unless you mail them
From Desolation Row
Dennis
Sober, crushed, shattered ....
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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I'm really sorry about the impending loss Dennis.
I remember thinking sobriety would make everything better - but the hits just kept coming. I had some dreadful stuff happen to me when I was newly sober.
What I eventually realised is sobriety made *me* better.
Life still has it's ups and downs but I run a pretty neat little ship these days and I sail through the rapids.
I've found peace and joy in my life and no amount of thunderstorms can change that.
I deal with stuff. Numbing yourself out and forgetting is not dealing. All the pain comes back.
I didn't just materialise at that point tho...I had to set out and journey towards it.
Give recovery a decent run , Dennis. You drank for years., Give recovery a few months at least, ok?
D
I remember thinking sobriety would make everything better - but the hits just kept coming. I had some dreadful stuff happen to me when I was newly sober.
What I eventually realised is sobriety made *me* better.
Life still has it's ups and downs but I run a pretty neat little ship these days and I sail through the rapids.
I've found peace and joy in my life and no amount of thunderstorms can change that.
I deal with stuff. Numbing yourself out and forgetting is not dealing. All the pain comes back.
I didn't just materialise at that point tho...I had to set out and journey towards it.
Give recovery a decent run , Dennis. You drank for years., Give recovery a few months at least, ok?
D
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Originally Posted by soberwolf
Dont let your AV win Dennis
Dennis
I'm afraid of going but I can't stand standing still
The hole that I've been in looks more and more like a hill
In a rowboat on the ocean, swept offshore
I started to feel all at sea
I been down so long it looks like up to me
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I'm really sorry about the impending loss Dennis.
I remember thinking sobriety would make everything better - but the hits just kept coming. I had some dreadful stuff happen to me when I was newly sober.
What I eventually realised is sobriety made *me* better.
Life still has it's ups and downs but I run a pretty neat little ship these days and I sail through the rapids.
I've found peace and joy in my life and no amount of thunderstorms can change that.
I deal with stuff. Numbing yourself out and forgetting is not dealing. All the pain comes back.
I didn't just materialise at that point tho...I had to set out and journey towards it.
Give recovery a decent run , Dennis. You drank for years., Give recovery a few months at least, ok?
D
I remember thinking sobriety would make everything better - but the hits just kept coming. I had some dreadful stuff happen to me when I was newly sober.
What I eventually realised is sobriety made *me* better.
Life still has it's ups and downs but I run a pretty neat little ship these days and I sail through the rapids.
I've found peace and joy in my life and no amount of thunderstorms can change that.
I deal with stuff. Numbing yourself out and forgetting is not dealing. All the pain comes back.
I didn't just materialise at that point tho...I had to set out and journey towards it.
Give recovery a decent run , Dennis. You drank for years., Give recovery a few months at least, ok?
D
Your words; rather I agree or disagree w\ them always seem to strike a nerve w\ me. Almost as if we came from the same cosmic dust.
Not meant to be anything demeaning; just a strange observation.
Dennis
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
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i felt damned if i do damned if i dont in early sobreity for a long time. I really have no idea why i kept pushing forward. In my case i guess iw as just that terrified of the panic attacks thought he daily anxiety and panic i still faced was horrid and I thought this is no way to live either. I just kept pushing forward for no other reason then just to do so many days. Many days I just thought oh well i guess i was sober again wtver that means etc.. It did start to ease up tho.
Hang in there just keep pushing forward. Sometimes I kinda had to put the blinders on and keep moving forward and not looking side to side. and if i was faced with something big like your facing right now I'd try not to face anything else in life to keep my load as light as possible heck i had no choice i couldnt handle much at all anyhow.
hang in there.
Hang in there just keep pushing forward. Sometimes I kinda had to put the blinders on and keep moving forward and not looking side to side. and if i was faced with something big like your facing right now I'd try not to face anything else in life to keep my load as light as possible heck i had no choice i couldnt handle much at all anyhow.
hang in there.
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11
Quoted wrong post I apologize ......
Dennis
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
Dennis
My name is August West, and I love my Pearly Baker best more than my wine.
More than my wine - more than my maker, though he's no friend of mine.
Take care.
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