back again I had 4 months of sobriety in 2010...then almost 11 months last year. I've gone through a lot of difficult life events in the first part of this year, which really for a while there, I didn't think I could stand the pain of. Divorce (not due to the drinking), having to move, and live on my own again. I have a serious illness. Very serious. Though I work full time at a demanding job. Today is day one again. And my last day one. I would say, I "hope" it's the last, but I don't want to give myself an out. I can't do this anymore. I've never been an AA person, but I'm willing to give anything a try at this point. And maybe that's the mindset that will make this time permanent. I'm just so done. I look forward to reconnecting, and spending a lot of time on here learning and dealing with this head on, instead of trying to act like a normie. I'm just not. |
Welcome back, SillyString! |
Congrats on making a day 1 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rituality.html You can do this if you do it for you SillyString |
Welcome, SillyString! It sounds like you know what you need to do ... the same thing I found out the hard way: to do whatever it takes to stay sober and get that demon off my back. We're here to help when you need support, a listening ear or what have you. |
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Thanks all. I really appreciate the welcome. |
Welcome back SillyString!! :) |
Welcome back silly string . It is a long journey for lots of us. |
Hi sillystring, Sorry about your serious illness. "I'm willing to give anything a try at this point." and " trying to act like a normie. I'm just not." Your ready. I wish you the best of luck. |
Good to see you back, Sillystring! |
I'm sorry about your troubles and struggles, but I'm glad to see you again sillystring :) D |
It's so good to see you again, Silly. |
Glad you are back Silly. I have gone through some life changing things in the past 2 years. I have also been through some serious health issues too. Sometimes I feel like I have very little left. I feel like someone has whipped my security blanket from me and I won't ever get it back. However...........through out of it, I have not drank. Sometimes I think its because if I do have a drink, I won't be able to stop. Other times I know, from experience, it does not make things any better or easier to cope with. Sometimes I say to myself, if things feel this bad still by tomorrow, I will have a drink if I want one, but I won't drink today. Then I try to distract myself on keep busy. I can hand on heart say that there has never been a tomorrow where I have felt so bad still that I have had a drink. Drink or no drink, I will still remain lonely, unemployed and feeling depressed. I also personally believe that when I look over some of the rubbish times I have had, I should be proud of myself. Partner left - did not drink. Made redundant - did not drink. Having housing issues - have not drunk. Feeling proud of not drinking makes me see myself in a bit of a better life. People will say, wow you have dealt with a lot, and I think to myself, yes I have and I did it without resorting to numbing myself with booze. Its nice feeling proud of yourself. It makes me feel that whatever life throws at me, I can cope, however unpleasant it is at the time. I wish you the best xx |
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