21 days ago.
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21 days ago.
First, Happy Fathers Day to all you amazing dads and single moms 
It's amazing what happens when you give yourself time. During a time when you are scared or unsure. 3 weeks ago, I was a terrible mess. Didn't know what the hell to do or where to go. I thought about checking myself into the hospital, I even counted my pennies to see if I could afford rehab...I couldn't so I looked into AA, drove to a meeting but, sat in my car. I was just scared, felt like I wanted to die. It was the day after my last drink and I had just come off of a horrendous hangover. 21 days is still young, I'm just happy I'm finally starting to feel back to normal.
It's a process, sometimes I walk around on eggshells, and other days this apt feels way bigger than it is...point is I'm getting thru. I hope this message gets thru to someone who may be confused in the beginning of sobriety. Someone who just started day one or barely making it thru day 2. You will be fine. Some days I'm not sure of my next move but at least Im clear on what I wont do and that's drink. I look at it as cheating on myself. I just can't.
It's really that simple bc these last 3 weeks would be for nothing and I've come too far. Anything is better than where I've been. That's for damm sure.
It's amazing what happens when you give yourself time. During a time when you are scared or unsure. 3 weeks ago, I was a terrible mess. Didn't know what the hell to do or where to go. I thought about checking myself into the hospital, I even counted my pennies to see if I could afford rehab...I couldn't so I looked into AA, drove to a meeting but, sat in my car. I was just scared, felt like I wanted to die. It was the day after my last drink and I had just come off of a horrendous hangover. 21 days is still young, I'm just happy I'm finally starting to feel back to normal.
It's a process, sometimes I walk around on eggshells, and other days this apt feels way bigger than it is...point is I'm getting thru. I hope this message gets thru to someone who may be confused in the beginning of sobriety. Someone who just started day one or barely making it thru day 2. You will be fine. Some days I'm not sure of my next move but at least Im clear on what I wont do and that's drink. I look at it as cheating on myself. I just can't.
It's really that simple bc these last 3 weeks would be for nothing and I've come too far. Anything is better than where I've been. That's for damm sure.
Keep on keepin' on. 
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