I might really be able to do this?
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Update:
Last night was rough. About 50 Hypnic jerks before I finally got some sleep. Early morning just had a lot of mini intense dreams but feel so much clearer right now. Skin crawling is gone just now some fatigue.
Rest of day 5 here I come.
Last night was rough. About 50 Hypnic jerks before I finally got some sleep. Early morning just had a lot of mini intense dreams but feel so much clearer right now. Skin crawling is gone just now some fatigue.
Rest of day 5 here I come.
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HI ZoneEater, way to go on day 5. I believe you're past the worst of it. You have a huge advantage... your age and you desire. The only advice I can offer is hang around here and listen to the good people at SR, they've see it all. And want to help you. Best of luck.
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Hi ZoneEater - welcome 
There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the meeting based main players, including but not limited to AA:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach
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There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the meeting based main players, including but not limited to AA:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach
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Phew have to say that I have been feeling pretty ok. Sweating like I can't believe.
I did actually make it to see my dad for father's day.
And I am actually doing the cooking. I'm a mess in the kitchen, but i've successfully julliened a bunch of apples and carrots and made a lovely coleslaw. I'll be cooking some pork chops in some mushroom sauce later.
This sweating though... Anyone had any luck on something that stops/manages it? I am literally sitting under a fan while I type this.
And no i'm NOT sweating in the food! :P
Thanks again for everyone's support.
Day 5 will be great.
Day 6 at work? Now that's another story for another day.
I did actually make it to see my dad for father's day.
And I am actually doing the cooking. I'm a mess in the kitchen, but i've successfully julliened a bunch of apples and carrots and made a lovely coleslaw. I'll be cooking some pork chops in some mushroom sauce later.
This sweating though... Anyone had any luck on something that stops/manages it? I am literally sitting under a fan while I type this.
And no i'm NOT sweating in the food! :P
Thanks again for everyone's support.
Day 5 will be great.
Day 6 at work? Now that's another story for another day.
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Thanks everyone for the good ideas and the warm wishes. Last night was infinitely better than the previous nights.
Day 6:
Well, I am still pretty shaky and my eyes hurt.. Sweating is pretty much entirely gone. I decided one more day at home couldn't hurt so I asked my boss to switch my telework day to today.
I'm sure i'll have hundreds of emails to attempt to respond to, and maybe I can get a little more sleep in.
I know i'm not out of the water. The real test comes once I feel 100%. The habit has to be broken. And I think support here, and maybe a meeting (though last time wasn't good, just made me want to run away) should get me through.
I feel like I wish the human mind could remember physical pain and suffering so that I could just pull that up the next time I feel like drinking. But then, who would have more than one child? :P
Right now i'll just keep trucking along on SR and reading some literature and deal with it one minute at a time.
I know I can do this.
Day 6:
Well, I am still pretty shaky and my eyes hurt.. Sweating is pretty much entirely gone. I decided one more day at home couldn't hurt so I asked my boss to switch my telework day to today.
I'm sure i'll have hundreds of emails to attempt to respond to, and maybe I can get a little more sleep in.
I know i'm not out of the water. The real test comes once I feel 100%. The habit has to be broken. And I think support here, and maybe a meeting (though last time wasn't good, just made me want to run away) should get me through.
I feel like I wish the human mind could remember physical pain and suffering so that I could just pull that up the next time I feel like drinking. But then, who would have more than one child? :P
Right now i'll just keep trucking along on SR and reading some literature and deal with it one minute at a time.
I know I can do this.
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If I understand this correctly you've taken 6 days away from work to get through this? So you've got a significant investment in this thing.
I believe you hit the nail on the head, we have short memories when its convenient. Like when we are back to feeling great, we think it'll be OK to give her hell again and it won't happen "this time". Go back and read this thread, hopefully it will remind you that if you do this again, you will feel like 0% not 100%. My 2 cents.
I believe you hit the nail on the head, we have short memories when its convenient. Like when we are back to feeling great, we think it'll be OK to give her hell again and it won't happen "this time". Go back and read this thread, hopefully it will remind you that if you do this again, you will feel like 0% not 100%. My 2 cents.
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Thanks thomas! This would be my 4th day of work out but 6th of not drinking-weekend and such (i telework a lot so it's not really too much of an issue thankfully).
Yea I am going to have to see what kind of support network I can setup when I know i'm convienently forgetting how painful this has been. Might even be worse than 0% because there was a point where I wished I was dead.
So basically the end of day 6 and I have been ok. Some random itchyness but drinking a lot of water has helped.
I also started a journal to help get my thoughts down. It gets lonely (and sometimes a bit crowded) in my head and that escape is definitely one of the reasons for my binges.
Yea I am going to have to see what kind of support network I can setup when I know i'm convienently forgetting how painful this has been. Might even be worse than 0% because there was a point where I wished I was dead.
So basically the end of day 6 and I have been ok. Some random itchyness but drinking a lot of water has helped.
I also started a journal to help get my thoughts down. It gets lonely (and sometimes a bit crowded) in my head and that escape is definitely one of the reasons for my binges.
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Day 7: Work is hell. Getting to work was hell. Concentration is hell. I have a few meetings that I have to do today and I have no idea how I am going to get through them. But I will.
Hopefully the morning will get a bit better and I can stop being so anxious and counting the hours to go home.
Hopefully the morning will get a bit better and I can stop being so anxious and counting the hours to go home.
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Hi Zoned -
Welcome to SR
There are other options besides AA, such as rational recovery that you can look into. You will need some sort of support, though. My tools are a combination of approaches that I've taken from a variety of sources.
Have you joined this month's group newcomers chat thread yet?
Welcome to SR
There are other options besides AA, such as rational recovery that you can look into. You will need some sort of support, though. My tools are a combination of approaches that I've taken from a variety of sources.
Have you joined this month's group newcomers chat thread yet?
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Originally Posted by ZoneEater 
Hey all.
New to the forum though I've been reading for years. Wasn't ready to come to grips what was just a problem I had on weekends often turning every Friday night through Sunday into a party with friends. Maybe it wasn't a problem then but it is now. And maybe I did have some grip that it was or I wouldn't have been lurking for years, right?
What was partying turned into drinking a few beers every night and binging weekends one I got my high stress well paying gov job at 27.
I'm 32 now and my body hates me with a passion.
Today is DAY 4 and I'm actually over the worst of the withdrawal systems. I have a bit of itchy skin and a muddled mind, but all the worst has come and gone.
So now I need to get my life back on track and I'm trying to figure out how to do that. I tried AA and it wasn't for me- at least now the few I went to. also the surrendering to a higher power thing.
What alternatives do i have that do offer some face to face?
Would love your support. I never want to drink again. I can tell that it's impossible for me to just moderate.
Thanks!
Zoned
New to the forum though I've been reading for years. Wasn't ready to come to grips what was just a problem I had on weekends often turning every Friday night through Sunday into a party with friends. Maybe it wasn't a problem then but it is now. And maybe I did have some grip that it was or I wouldn't have been lurking for years, right?
What was partying turned into drinking a few beers every night and binging weekends one I got my high stress well paying gov job at 27.
I'm 32 now and my body hates me with a passion.
Today is DAY 4 and I'm actually over the worst of the withdrawal systems. I have a bit of itchy skin and a muddled mind, but all the worst has come and gone.
So now I need to get my life back on track and I'm trying to figure out how to do that. I tried AA and it wasn't for me- at least now the few I went to. also the surrendering to a higher power thing.
What alternatives do i have that do offer some face to face?
Would love your support. I never want to drink again. I can tell that it's impossible for me to just moderate.
Thanks!
Zoned
"Nobody....ever recovers...by beginning with a list of things that they are not willing to do..."
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Originally Posted by Erikst
This is what my sponsor said to me:
"Nobody....ever recovers...by beginning with a list of things that they are not willing to do..."
Nobody goes to a heart surgeon and tells them a list of what they can't do, they just do whatever it takes, because it is a life or death situation. This is essentially the same thing.
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